Strength by Association

             I was going to say that it’s been a difficult past week in Mental Health, but truly, EVERY week has its challenges, for so many of us.  We don’t hear about the non-famous folks who are also struggling.  And that’s where my focus has turned.

             It’s not even really about “reaching out” as all the media is reminding us.  It’s more about the

staying connected.

             There are people who think this is our only life, and that there is no Source.  Who believe that we’re just bouncing around out here randomly, and then we die.  Well, that’s not how I understand it.

             Our goal is to do the very best we can, and the prize is that we can then go Home.  If our journey causes more pain than we can tolerate, sometimes, we bail early.

             This option leaves behind more hurt than can be measured.  And yet.  There are moments, times, people, who can only see that avenue, and no other.

             We can never know what our tolerance is until we have reached the breaking point.  It is one of the most individual aspects of who we are.

             Staying in contact with our loved ones, our co-workers, our community is the very best way to keep that pain from overwhelming us.  Just knowing that there is someone, anyone, we can depend on to share a tiny bit of that pain with can be enough.

             Another suggestion is to find what eases the discomfort, even for a glancing second.  And then, to share it.  To say, “hey, this works for me” so that others may, too, find a moment of relief.

             As always, it takes me no time at all to arrive in front of the most perfect stack of cards with the most validating message.

angel messages

“Angel of Self-Worth

You are currently undervaluing yourself;

It is time to regain your self-worth.

You are so much more than what you are portraying to the world and those around you.

The Angel of Self-Worth is here today to reflect unto you all the beauty, love, and light that you are, and to help you regain your sense of self-worth.  Feel her healing light penetrating your aura this very moment and affirm to yourself:

I am a being of light and love.

I love and value the many wonderful qualities that I possess.

From this moment forward, I will honour and value myself, and all I am and all I do,

in the knowledge that I am part of Creation.

I am worthy of love.

I am worthy.

Repeat this affirmation several times each day, either out loud or in the silence of your heart.  Reflect upon each word and truly believe and own each one.  Express each word with all your heart and soul.

As you begin to value yourself, you will find that others start to value you.”

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods, and Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Sharing:

is to say, without question, at times like these, when everywhere we turn there are reminders of suffering, please, practice Self-Care.  Take your three minutes, wrestle them out of every single fucking day.  You’re worth it, I’m worth it.

             Spend your valuable and sacred time sitting quietly.  Relax.  Don’t move.  Listen.  Recharge.  Breathe.  Perhaps even think about sending soothing and healing light to those who have more pain than they can carry right now.

 

 

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Merit.

             As we’ve discussed, Faith is a slippery bastard.  Like our Zen Balance, it’s difficult to nail down and keep a hold of.  Sometimes though, we are blessed to just have it wash over us in a most delightful and refreshing manner.   Today, I had one of those days.

Eugene spring scene

             Sure, there were difficulties.  Like when my cheap-ass camera misbehaved, but Dan got it going again.  All was well.  Okay, all is MOSTLY well.  I ended up with baby toe blisters, but hey, I stomped on past the pain.  It brought my average pace time down, but we all know this is NOT a fucking race.  My feet will heal.  No one died.  I was not derailed.

eugene spring scenes

             Last night, as the deputy got ready for a late night jog, I advised him to take it easy.  He’d not been out for a run in many weeks.  Did I follow this same suggestion when *I* trotted off into the vast out of doors?  No, no I absolutely did not.  Hence, the injuries.  However, this entire situation was all very clear to me.  Which I count as a huge damn hunk of progress.

eugene spring scenes

             In the category of Today’s Mileage (later, below) I’ll give  you the specifics, but for now, here’s your promised views of the many crocus blooming near me.  It was pretty gray out, and sprinkled off and on the entire time, but it was also hovering around 50 degrees.

eugene spring scene

This is just down our road; I’m nearly at The Burrow by this point, three blocks to go.
(It’s also where my picture-taking came to an end due to a minor equipment failure.)

             There are two black chickens in that (above) yard.  The guy put up this flimsy and slightly odd fence a few weeks ago.  I’ve been keeping an eye on it, and now I know exactly why he did what he did.  Free roaming, but safely contained, in-city hens!

             When I got home our mail had arrived, or maybe there was still some in the box from yesterday (this happens more often than we like to admit), so I brought it in.  There was a wee package with my name on it.  From a friend.  Presents!  How fun!  But wait, it’s so much bigger than I could have anticipated.

             Music and I have a challenging relationship.  Because of how my mind focuses (and obsesses) it’s basically impossible for me to tolerate ambient noise.  I MUST listen to/focus on whatever is around me.  TV or radio or voices or irritating vibrational tones, doesn’t matter.  I listen, and I listen closely.  I have no control over it.  So, when writers like Delia talk about soundtracks or having music on when they write, I can’t relate.  Until this afternoon.  Now I get it.

             What showed up in this delivery today was phenomenal, and unexpectedly enlightening.  Tunes, with NO WORDS*!!!  Dear Pal O’ Mine, how ever did you know?  Or were you psychically/spiritually guided to send this gift?  Don’t care, it changed my life.  Thank you, more than I can even say.

             *Yes, I was AWARE of this, as a product, but it had never permeated my wee brain enough to make itself known as a THING that I required.

              I never knew I needed this!  The descriptions that sprang up, as I floated around, getting shit done and practically DANCING were: uplifting, amazing, encouraging, illuminating  inspirational, soothing & energizing all at the same time.

             This CD (this new treasure!) is going to be downloaded, saved, stored, cherished, and all ’round shoved into every level and portion of my life from here on out.  When Doreen channels those messages which tell us to surround ourselves with music, does she mean like this?  Because if so, she’s exactly correct.  It makes a MASSIVE difference!  (Ally, I know you are aware of this, as are others who PLAY music, but I was not.  Now I am.)

             Our daily draw, once again, echos my sentiments before I even know I’m going to express them in this way.

oracle and angel cards

“Worthiness  ~

Know that you deserve to receive good in all ways.

You have been blocking your manifestations due to deep-seated beliefs that you don’t deserve them.  Manifestations are not rewards for good behavior – they are effects of your thoughts, beliefs, feelings, and actions.  When  you allow yourself to receive, you help the Universal plan to demonstrate love everywhere.

Accepting Heaven’s help isn’t just about you personally; it’s about allowing yourself to be helped so that you can help others.  Accept good graciously, and affirm:

Thank you for gifts that have come to me now.

I gratefully accept them for the good of all.”

             Learning this difficult lesson, with grace and love, is so, SO important.  I am practicing it today, and hope all of you are too.

Today’s Deck:

Magical Mermaids and Dolphins Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Mileage:

was a walk, not a ride, as I said before.  Slightly less than 5 miles, because I had to cut out the last two-block loop.

Yesterday’s FLP Report:

is a day late, whatevs.  Illinois.  Plus one that I forgot, almost as soon as I saw it.  (I can’t pedal and text.  Safely.)

Yesterday’s Baking:

was half a batch of these (that had no recipe link, from this post).

double chocolate chip cookies

Chocolatey, like really.

             Notice to my in-town children, if you want any cookies-that-are-basically-just-flat-brownies you better get here quickly.  No deliveries this time (except to your grandparents, because they’re old, and crabby).  There aren’t very many of these left.  On the other hand, I’ll gladly make you more, as soon as supplies are refreshed.

             Notice to out-of-town kid, can’t wait for your next vacation time in this direction, I’ll bake for you!

LateNight Link and Activism:

just came in from Corina, right before I posted.  Go HERE and sign the petition.  Please.  It costs nothing but half a minute.  Our ocean friends will thank you.  (The irony of this timing does NOT escape me.)