Necessary

             What does it mean to be needed, and is it a way we wish to have others view us?  Don’t we all struggle to feel worthy and of value?

             Do we really HAVE to have all the things we cling to?  Are all of these gadgets and contraptions required for a truly happy existence?  Do we feel incomplete without the reassurance of others?

             This lifetime, for me, is all about Release and Letting Go lessons.  Yet, in the day-to-day, down-n-dirty, we-got-those-bills-to-pay reality, we’re maybe trying to go the other direction.  Might we be causing some of these issues?

            I mean, none of us is so unique that we can’t be replaced.  While at the same time, we truly ARE incredibly special, individual, the only one like us, with our own set of skills, talents, and gifts.

             It’s a balance, it’s a back-and-forth of trying to find that harmony of necessity.

             It’s:

equilibrium.

             We want to feel good about ourselves and what we’re accomplishing.  We just don’t want to worry that when we take a break everything will go to hell in a handbasket.

             How we find the tipping point is to fall off of the edge.  Uncomfortable?  Yes.  Fatal?  Usually not.  Informative?  Always.

             It’s up to us, one at time, in our own space, in our own way, with our own specialized set of tools, to discover that fine calculation, that perfect leveling.

             We need to seek it gently, though.  Without vigor, and without haste.  We need to approach it softly, so as not to flip the scales and cause a crash.

             In asking all of these questions, I was directed to see what else we could learn here.  This validation brings the start of an answer, a recalibrating of a reminder.

             To learn, we often times are forced to teach.  To instruct, we must first acknowledge that we are always still learning.

             To help ourselves, it is best to begin by helping others.

balance

“tumbled stones

rainbow healing

Today marks the start of a new beginning; a new way of looking at life and the world around you.

Be it in dreams or through beautiful rainbows, you are being infused with light and blessings. 

Relax!

Surrender your concerns to the universal light of love and allow this wondrous healing to occur.

You will soon find that others are attracted to you.  Many will come and seek your help and advice for you are a beacon of light unto all.

In the near future you will empower others with your love and wisdom as you help them see their own inner light and beauty.

You are a natural born healer who heals through the power of love.”

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Affirmation:

(from the same source)

I will love myself enough today to

allow the light of my soul to shine

through and reveal my inner beauty,

truth,

and purpose.

 

 

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Gear Switching, literally as well as metaphorically.

             Last night Corina shared a link with us that blew my mind (in a figurative sense, obvs, and led me off on a VERY long trail of more sites and more links and more information).  And I had planned on talking about it.  I will, but not yet.  Instead I need to tell everyone about how my day went.  Because it was NOT what I thought it was going to be like.  At.  All.

             For one thing, it’s raining.  Not that this matters much to the story, but in a way it’s a minor player.  Here’s the deal, I have increased the bike rides due to my not-losing-weight situation (most days doubling up with other activities).  They are quicker and take less preparation than trudges do.  Every day since we’ve been back (with maybe one or two exceptions) I’ve gone on my 5 mile Route.  On every one of those days I’ve been asking my want-y self elf “why don’t I have toe baskets?”

             Like these.  Because I was thinking they’d help keep my feet on the pedals.  Turns out, they don’t actually do* what I wanted them to.  But, also turns out, that wasn’t the point.  There are LOTS of businesses here locally to choose from if one requires bicycle assistance, parts, info, or just something to ride.  There are two close to The Burrow.  I got the items in one place (thank you, very nice young woman who searched in the back room for me and found what I needed) but ended up having them attached in another.

*They DO help somewhat, but not the way I thought they would.  I’ve found that pushing with my toes gives me another “level” or gear when I get tired and need that extra boost to sprint justonemoretime.

Installed,
and super spiffy.

             My plan had been to run a few errands (Wee Walnut being my mode of transportation) and then come home to pedal off some flab (that’s me, eternally hopeful).  But sadly my Specialness prevented the delightful young man at the counter from knowing what was required.  He suggested I just bring everything in.  Good call, Alex.  (Seriously, I found out later that his name is Alex.)

             I went home.  Changed clothes.  And rode back.  In the rain.  Like I fucking cared.  I was so damn tired of WANTING this accessory, that I just didn’t give a shit any more.  Weather?  Who even notices?  Ride extra miles?  Sure, apparently I do that now.

             Paul’s Bicycle Way Of Life is not a company I’d ever done business with.  Because ya know, I didn’t Bicycle!  Now I do.  And they are WAY handy.  Not only that but the folks who were working in the shop today (Tom, and the aforementioned Alex) were AWESOME!  In particular though, was Anna.  My new BFF.  She was friendly, competent, efficient, kind, capable, patient, talented, adorable (!!!), and (wait for it……..) she lives in my neighborhood.  She’s seen me ride by!  Recognized my ratty-assesd hand-me-down two-wheeler!   And, in TRULY Eugene Uniqueness, she is a friend-of-a-friend.

             There are not enough compliments I can toss at these people (ANNA!!!).  So I’ll just show you one more picture, and leave it at that.

Mobile Mermaiding.

             Anna put this on for me.  I am now well hydrated, and able to go even farther than I could before.  Also, I used that hilariously horrible bag-made-from-a-hooded-sweatshirt to conveniently (even if not so stylishly) carry my belongings today.   Moral of my tale?  When you hope for a beautiful and interesting day, be prepared to have one.  And enjoy every freaking moment of it.  Even if it ends up being totally different than you had imagined or even presumed to plan.

             Let’s get to our daily draw and Daily Dog, I’m very hungry and need to be done here so I can have my salad.

“Tumbled Stones  ~

rainbow healing  ~

Today marks the start of a new beginning; a new way of looking at life and the world around you.  Be it in dreams or through beautiful rainbows, you are being infused with light and blessings.  Relax!  Surrender your concerns to the universal light of love and allow this wondrous healing to occur.

You will soon find that others are attracted to you.  Many will come and seek your help and advice for you are a beacon of light unto all.  In the near future you will empower others with your love and wisdom as you help them see their inner light and beauty.  You are a natural born healer who heals through the power of love.”

             Wow, that was cool!  I hadn’t looked at the guidebook before I sat down here, so it was sort of a surprise.  The Rainbow Healing is especially nice.  And isn’t it just a great validation of what we were talking about before?  New starts and advancements of all types.  Our next “cycle” is absolutely going to be a good one.

Come in, Nana!

              While I was gone, this guy “helped” cut down some of that tall grass.  (Or maybe he just stayed safely on the deck, and sometimes in the living room on the couch.)

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle by Toni Carmine Salerno

             Tomorrow we’ll discuss that body type breakthrough.   Because, truly, dated or not, finding out about this has made a huge difference in how I’m viewing my entire project and weight-loss prospects.