What does it mean to be needed, and is it a way we wish to have others view us?  Don’t we all struggle to feel worthy and of value?

             Do we really HAVE to have all the things we cling to?  Are all of these gadgets and contraptions required for a truly happy existence?  Do we feel incomplete without the reassurance of others?

             This lifetime, for me, is all about Release and Letting Go lessons.  Yet, in the day-to-day, down-n-dirty, we-got-those-bills-to-pay reality, we’re maybe trying to go the other direction.  Might we be causing some of these issues?

            I mean, none of us is so unique that we can’t be replaced.  While at the same time, we truly ARE incredibly special, individual, the only one like us, with our own set of skills, talents, and gifts.

             It’s a balance, it’s a back-and-forth of trying to find that harmony of necessity.



             We want to feel good about ourselves and what we’re accomplishing.  We just don’t want to worry that when we take a break everything will go to hell in a handbasket.

             How we find the tipping point is to fall off of the edge.  Uncomfortable?  Yes.  Fatal?  Usually not.  Informative?  Always.

             It’s up to us, one at time, in our own space, in our own way, with our own specialized set of tools, to discover that fine calculation, that perfect leveling.

             We need to seek it gently, though.  Without vigor, and without haste.  We need to approach it softly, so as not to flip the scales and cause a crash.

             In asking all of these questions, I was directed to see what else we could learn here.  This validation brings the start of an answer, a recalibrating of a reminder.

             To learn, we often times are forced to teach.  To instruct, we must first acknowledge that we are always still learning.

             To help ourselves, it is best to begin by helping others.


“tumbled stones

rainbow healing

Today marks the start of a new beginning; a new way of looking at life and the world around you.

Be it in dreams or through beautiful rainbows, you are being infused with light and blessings. 


Surrender your concerns to the universal light of love and allow this wondrous healing to occur.

You will soon find that others are attracted to you.  Many will come and seek your help and advice for you are a beacon of light unto all.

In the near future you will empower others with your love and wisdom as you help them see their own inner light and beauty.

You are a natural born healer who heals through the power of love.”

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Affirmation:

(from the same source)

I will love myself enough today to

allow the light of my soul to shine

through and reveal my inner beauty,


and purpose.





Ascertaining as we Go

             So hey.  I just spent the last hour dealing with no interwebz.  On the phone, discussing this issue with a trying-to-be-helpful young woman/representative of our cable provider.  We found nothing wrong.  And yet.  I had no connection.  We made an appointment.  And hung up.

             And then.  Ta da!  All fixed.  Now I have to cancel the appointment.  Whew.  All I could do was laugh, because today we were going to talk about Mercury!

             We still are.  Tomorrow morning (Friday) it returns direct.  We’ll still have a Shadow Phase to get through for another week, but the “real” reverse is nearly over.

             (Except for that last jab in the ribs I just got.  Kinda like, there ya go!)

             I had planned on spending some time in reflection, going back over the last batch of Retrograde days.  Now, I am SURE to look at what lessons were delivered to my door.  (Or desktop, as may be the case.)

             We know the lessons are in those delays, it’s just a matter of figuring out what they are.  And why.  We can’t see them when they’re super close though, as they are happening.  It takes a bit of time passing in order for us to look back and find the meanings.

             What was shown to me this morning was the reminder I needed for this assessment exercise.  The images told another side of the story.  One of challenges met.

We are capable of so much more than we even realize.

             The bodies that we wear are amazing tools of unimaginable intricacy.  But our souls are even MORE capable.  We’re truly wondrous creatures, and rarely do we get the recognition that we deserve.

             Daily we are faced with innumerable decisions and tasks.  So many of which we solve and take care of without thinking much about them.  But then there are those chores, the ones that seem almost painful to get through.

             Facing them, looking back on what worked (or didn’t) last time, gazing with Hope into the future.  All of these are ways of management.  In my card altar room today we’ve been directed away from the regular rotation so that this message could help us as well.

letting go messages, coming apart, oracle cards

“Coming Apart  ~  46  ~

Now is the time to take separate paths.


The Coming Apart card is a sign to put an end to what is no longer working for you.  Has a commitment been broken?  Perhaps you need to break a promise, or change course because you took on more than you could handle.

This is the perfect time to reassess your goals and values.  Are your actions in alignment with what you believe in?  Have you created a partnership that is not mutually beneficial?

Separation, dissolution, and dispersion are all in focus now.  If someone wishes to break away from you, don’t chase the relationship out of a sense of fear.

The price you’ll pay will not be worth the prize.  Separation brings good fortune.


A situation is unraveling, and  your best plans are leading you into a tricky maze.  Your challenge is to separate out the elements of this puzzle to get a better perspective on what happened.

You may have lingered too long in a place where you didn’t belong anymore, seduced by a temporary solution.

As you untangle yourself, it’s important to maintain a sense of humor.  Don’t fret.  You will learn something valuable that you’ll need later when faced with a more dangerous situation.

Breathe . . . and know that you are loved.”

             I’ve included both views, because it seemed right.  I’m not fond of this particular illustration, but I continue to love the cards and book (which I haven’t cracked the cover on in over a week).  Double images like that are uncomfortable for me to look at.

             The way this one is worded though, that’s the key.  We can take a Quiet Moment and not only examine what was learned during Mercury’s delays, but also see what’s up with where we might need to make some space for ourselves.

             And truly, thank our entire selves for the fabulous work we’re doing, every freaking minute of the damn day.

Today’s Deck:

The Enchanted Map Oracle Cards by Colette Baron-Reid

FLP Report:

South Carolina.  That’s been it.