Repair, restore, rebuild.

             This week marks my ten year blogaversary.  I began here, a decade ago, to make sense of my sister’s death.  As a place for thoughts, feelings, and later, messages.

             It has served that purpose, plus so much more.  I have no plans to stop showing up, whether I have readers or not (although, I truly hope I do).  It’s worth my time to sit down, contemplate, type, and ultimately, share.

             My mother told me once, at a major turning point in her life, that she felt the perfect imagery (she could see it clearly in her mind’s eye), was the slow changing of a page, the folding flip of paper, as it turned over, marking the end of one chapter, beginning of another.

             I feel that now, as we transition into a new week, a new month, a new year, and no doubt, a new decade.  I hear the Universe tell us that this movement, this marking of time is


             The recovery and restoration has begun.  We may now go forward, wounded and wearing our scars proudly.  We may move on to the next chapter, the next path.

            We have learned, we have grown, and we have traveled so very far.  We are always better for surviving.  And if all we did was make it through this particular day, well, that is an accomplishment.  One we won’t diminish.

             Thank you, for taking this trip with me.  I appreciate you, and treasure your presence.


May we all find peace.

May we all heal.





Us as Knowledgeable

             The irony of today’s message, after what we received yesterday, did not escape me.  It does, however, compliment that reminder more than it might seem at first.

Self Aware

             This is pretty specifically focused on our “inner” self, but of course, since we’re wearing physical bodies, it also has to deal, somewhat, with our “outer” selves, too.

            For example, are we doing all that we can to keep our physical-ness comfortable?  And, are we nourishing the soul as well as the body?

              Mind-Body-Spirit health is not always practiced when we get stressed or overly busy.  Sadly, that’s precisely the time we need it the most.  Focusing on our WHOLE self is the key here.

             Additionally, we need to stay alert to our emotions.  Are we living in an open and honest way?  Mindfully?  In lovingkindness?  Because if we aren’t, then we’re just spinnin’ our wheels.

             On our card altar, I was directed to leave the regular rotation, so that this messenger could show up and tell us where to go for help, should we need it.

oracle cards, psychic healing, angels

“Angel of Psychic Ability  ~

Your intuitive and psychic abilities are strong and present.

Your intuitive and psychic abilities are very strong and present right now and give you the ability to see through things.  You are being urged to pay attention to what you sense and feel, rather than what you are told or shown.

Trust your instincts when you are around particular people or situations.   You will instinctively know what is right for you.  Regardless of statistics or how professionally it is presented, if something doesn’t feel right for you, then it’s not.”

             I love this one.  I just don’t care for the illustration.  Since we were kind of in a rush earlier, I didn’t bother to cover it up.

             The image though, does not detract from what is being said.  When we feel something strongly, it’s nearly always a sign, message, or guidance from (someone on) our Team.

             My only (other!) complaint* would just be to point out that our abilities are ALWAYS present.  We just might be noticing them more right now, or possibly we’re just being sent some specific information as a warning or signal.

*And it’s not really a “complaint” so much as a professional disagreement I have with Toni.

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods, and Goddesses by Toni Carmine Salerno

FLP Report:

has been slim to none, so when Dan spotted a Colorado in front of us after pool class I decided to make note of it.  Even though we usually see so many of them that they’re relegated to the “no longer mention” pile with California, Washington, Nevada, Utah, and oddly enough, Texas.

Healing Touches.

             One of the definitions of the symbolism for houses in dreams is that they represent people in our lives.  The Santa Barbara house my grandparents lived in when I was growing up has appeared in my dreams since they sold that residence the year I turned 10.

            Four decades of seeing the rooms, the view, the property, and only sometimes the folks who lived in it.  Today I woke up from house dreams that just warmed my soul and broke my heart, all at the same time.

             Then, this is what I heard:

every personal connection that we make along our journey has meaning and value.

             We just don’t know HOW MUCH “meaning and value” at the time of the contact.  Our path is a series of these interactions.  Every single one is not intended to be life-changing, but they always ARE life-important.  Yes, even the briefest of them.

             On our card altar right now we were given a lovely tie-in gift for this one.  Also, it seems like our theme is consistent, too.  Very much what we’ve been hearing for days now.

crystal oracle cards, malachite

     “Malachite  ~  healing, change, insight, loyalty, patience

The predominant quality of this Malachite crystal is support and healing.

This is a time of positive change.  You will soon let go of past regret and guilt and this will pave the way to a positive and inspiring future.  

Guilt and regret stem from a misconceived belief that  you could have acted differently in the past, and if you had done so, things would have turned out better, either for you or for others.

Yet the universal law is such that it is impossible for you or others to ever lose anything without gaining an equal amount in return.  Life is always held in perfect equilibrium.

You are currently failing to see the positive effects of your past actions, choices, and decisions.  Look carefully and you will realise that many positives exist and that life is forever changing and unfolding in accordance to the higher will of your soul.

There are no mistakes, for ultimately, all serves a purpose.  All is designed to help us expand our awareness in order that we can embrace greater spheres of wisdom and love.  

Bless the past and let it go!

Know that everything  you have ever said or done, or think you have failed to say or do, has served a positive purpose for you and others.


There is no right or wrong choice.

Every choice I make is perfect at that time for it leads to an outcome which is necessary for me to grow in love and wisdom.”

             Nothing I could possibly add to that, except…..

I told you there were no mistakes.

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Kitchen Adventure:

was a baked dish, inspired by THIS, invented by me, and crafted by Dan (before he had to leave for work).

home made mac and cheese

Would you like some? Come by, we have plenty.

            It was originally supposed to just be a side serving for the meatloaf I made day-before-yesterday.  But it was tardy, and then just became an entire meal.  Shell pasta, Italian cheese blend, broccoli, asparagus, and sun-dried tomatoes.

Accompaniment Energy.

             Something terrific happened.  In my brain.  It was like a mini-epiphany.  I was leaving the pool, chatting with one of my delightful water friends, and it hit.  All sudden like.  I’ve begun to let go of some incorrect ideas.  I wanted to put it on a bumper sticker:

Release Works!

             Unless you are a Perfect Person (you aren’t, are you?) then you might understand how huge this is.  When we are able (finally!) to wrap our heads around a concept that had previously (four decades) alluded us, well, that’s nicely satisfactory.  It’s practically cause for celebration.

             I don’t want to get overly excited though, because relapses happen.  In my case, on a regular basis.  But it is just so refreshing sometimes, to simply say, “hey, I get it!”

             Waking up today was also delightful.  Not a phenomenon I’m all that familiar with, but it’s getting to be more common than not.  Our channeled message is:

as we walk our path, we are never alone.

             So maybe that had something to do with my lovely, and effortless, understanding this afternoon.  How comforting if it did.

             On our card altar I was directed to reach out of the rotation again, to this message, which seems to be picking up on a theme.

oracle cards, enjoying the magic of nature

“Magic of Nature  ~

Spend time outdoors, among the flowers, plants, and trees.  Nature has powerful gifts that she wants to share with you, including ideas, information, and healing energy.

When you are disconnected from Mother Earth, you may feel depressed or lethargic without knowing why.  Earth too, feels distraught when you don’t connect with her on a regular basis.  She needs you to be amidst her beauty so that she can telegraph information to you.  In this way, you’ll know best how to care for your planet.

By drawing this card, you are urged to spend time daily (even as little as five minutes!) outside in nature.  Remove your shoes and socks, and connect your bare feet with the soil, sod, or sand.  Close your eyes and take a few deep breaths as you’re surrounded by the magical energy of nature.

Mentally ask the fairies to help you with any issues you may have.  Then, open your eyes and look for their flitting light, which is the first sign that you are seeing the fairies that surround you.


I love being outside in nature.  I feel energized by the sunshine, fresh air, plants, and animals.  I take excellent care of every living being, including myself.”

             We could also add to that, something about gaining strength and nourishment from the cleansing rain.  Because ya know, we don’t ALL have sunshine, ALL the time, Doreen!

             (We don’t all have access to sand and soil either, I know.  But we encourage you to be creative and do the best that you can.)

             Although, today it was sunny and hot.  VERY much like real summer, which sort of surprised me.

Today’s Deck:

Healing With The Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Mileage:

was just up to my class and back, for 3.857 miles, in 22 minutes 36 seconds, with an average speed of 10.2 MPH (same as yesterday).

Today’s Sharing:

is a shot of my Rainbow Calendar for this month.

rainbow calendars, canadian rainbows


             The location is: Okanagan Valley, British Columbia.  Which I am now going to go look up, because wow.  So pretty.

Tonight’s Baking:

should really be called THIS WEEK’S MENU.  I have several items on the agenda for my Hurricane visit.  One is a Puppy Cake that she received as a gift last year and we never had a chance to make.

Down Time and Up Moments.

             My sister has been on my mind a lot lately.  No doubt because of the impending hair chop and how the last time I did this, it was for her.  (Yes, we have an appointment, tomorrow.)  But also it might have to do with all of the very sisterly-like love I’ve been blessed with lately.

             Yesterday was the surprise delivery of Jannelly’s treats.  And then today I was handed another package at my front door.  It was custom-created by my friend BonaFideBetty, just for me!  I am now the proud owner of a lined journal, with its cover showing a word-cloud from here in JulieLand.

             After I got home from the pool and brought in our mail, I nearly sobbed with joy over a present Dan’s older sister Barbara made for me: a CD with wedding picture replacements!  Plus, she included some gorgeous postcards of FoodScapes by Carl Warner.  (HERE is his place.)

art, journals, family love

My wealth knows no bounds.

             To all three of you, thanks thanks thanks.  And then, thank you some more.

             Your generosity and thoughtfulness have touched me deeply.  No one can replace a sister, but you have helped me past this difficult spot, and given me the opportunity to not feel that wound quite so much today.

             On our card altar we have received another gift.   That of allowing ourselves the space to grieve and to heal and to simply have some rest.

angel and oracle cards,  healing messages

Angel Of Relaxation  ~

Let go of desired outcomes and you will get what you want.

Everything will fall into place and become clear when it is meant to, so switch off and take it easy for a while.  The Angel Of Relaxation has appeared in your reading to help you relax.

By keeping your focus fixed on all it is you wish to happen, you are, in a way, preventing the natural flow of events to unfold.  Surrender any project or concern to the angels in the knowing that all is being taken care of.  Focus on all you have achieved to date and on all your many blessings.

Take time to nurture and pamper yourself, and start to do more of the those things which nourish your soul instead of worrying about the future. By relaxing and letting go of desired outcomes, you create the space for the angels and the universe to give you what you want.


             This couldn’t have come at a better time for me.  And I imagine  for many of you as well.  Listen to our angels, and (as one of my witchy friends says) don’t over-work the spell.  Release our desires, and our appreciation, out into the Universe.  Letting go, and relaxing into the knowledge that it will all be as it should.

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods and Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Festive Wishes:

to our other beloved California niece, Happy Happy Birthday, Erin!  Hope to see you soon, and here’s to hoping this year is better than any other, so far.  (Hug your mom extra special, for me, the next time you see her, okay?