a spark

             My week has mostly been a lot of work.  Also, a lot of work on healing.

             To “do better” or “get better” often we must put effort and energy into it.  I’ve been trying to be successful.  I’ll keep going, keep at it ……

             encouraging you to do the same.

             Our message is simply this:

light

             On my new front porch, in the small house where we now live, appeared a box.  It was accompanied by a handwritten card.  and this gift.

spark in the dark

             She sent me Light.  I needed it.  Now, I am sharing it.

 

 

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thank you, my friend, for being there when I needed you most

 

 

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Acknowledging the Attitude

             I’m going to be quick and to the point.  I’ve been sick for a week.  Missed a few hours of the training (not anything important, though). Lost my voice!  (I know.)  Coughed until I nearly blacked out.  It’s not been my best series of days, let’s just go with that.

             What I have gained from this experience is all rolled up in our message.  It’s about that old favorite, the Attitude of Gratitude.

Take nothing for granted.

             Nothing.  No.  Thing.  Like air.  And the actual ability to breathe it on our own.  And clean water.  We have it!  For free!

             Also, we are never alone.  We have our Tribe and out Team for support.  Always.  In any circumstance and under all conditions.

             To express that gratitude and acknowledge that appreciation is paramount right now.  In fact, let’s all do it together.  Reach out, say thanks.  Give a smile.  Share a hug.  Donate something.

             I’ll start.  Thank you, every single one of you.  For showing up, for staying with me.  And for sharing with others.

             Not surprisingly, the draw on our altar takes us beyond validation, on to the next level of this message.

guardian angel

“Sweetness  ~  Guardian Angel

Your guardian angel is asking you to notice and enjoy the nectar of life. ‘You are sweet,’ your guardian angel says of you, ‘and I can help you feel that happiness and joy.’

If you’ve felt toughened by life experiences, your angel can help you lower your defenses . . . and still be safe, protected, and respected.

This is also a message for you to treat yourself with tender sweetness.  Give yourself rewards and be kind to yourself.  Are you pushing too hard with an ‘all work and no play’ approach to life?  Be a sweetheart to yourself, and take some leisure time to play and enjoy the fruits of your labor!

Your guardian angel will also help you bring sweetness into your relationships in ways such as speaking with love, acting out of kindness, being generous, giving sincere compliments, and being thoughtful.

 As you show this extra consideration for others, it’s sure to be returned to you plentifully.  The Universe and all the angels are helping you fall back in love with life and enjoy its rich sweetness.”

             If it seems as though I harp on Self-Care so much, it’s because of how important this topic is.  For decades I not only wasn’t doing it, but I didn’t feel as if I was even worth any.  (I still have my doubts, it’s an on-going struggle.)

             So we need to listen when get these reminders.  We all deserve it!

Today’s Deck:

Saints & Angels Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Sharing:

is one of the two views from our downstairs calendar page.

on the porch

             Rain or shine, cold or warm, join me out here on the porch…

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Spiritually Significant

             One of the difficult parts of being in this life, and wearing these bodies, is the limitations of our physical brains.  Especially when it come to our own personal journey.

             We think we know what’s best, but sometimes it’s just not.  Sometimes we’ve wandered off the path, and we need to regroup.  We have become lost, or we are simply AT a loss.

             In order to get our bearings again, to reacquaint ourselves with the blueprint/map, we often need to just let go.  Which we all know is supremely hard.

The Highest Good

             Acknowledging that we ARE okay, and that all WILL be well, WILL work out, is also a challenge.  But again, letting go is the simplest solution.  No matter what our mind may insinuate, really, thinking is not the answer.

             There are even occasions where we can now look back and see how this DID benefit us in the end.  How we thought a situation was going one way, was heading in a certain direction, but then.  It SO fucking wasn’t.

             The solution came from a place we’d never even imagined was possible.  Or, never even imagined at all because we were unaware of its very existence.  Our brain was of no help.  And yet, in the end, it all got worked out.

             Still within our regular rotation around the card altar today, we have the most ideal draw for this message.  The illustration can’t help but bring a smile to our heart.

the high god of gratitude and service, oracle cards, messages of helping

“The High Lord of Gratitude and Service  ~  2  ~

selflessness, humility, conscious action

The High Lord of Gratitude and Service has arrived to help you find true purpose today.  Feeling gratitude for each moment you experience, and loving what is and what has been, will remind you that every breath you take holds a deep and profound awareness.

Through small actions and selfless service to another, you are automatically placed upon your highest path, whether you’re immediately aware of it or not.  The presence of this Ally lets you know that you are on the correct path to fulfilling your desires.

You’re also notified that your actions of service and attitude of gratitude will yield riches beyond your wildest dreams, as long as those riches aren’t the goal you have in mind.

Giving service with no thought of return is what’s required of you today.  This would also be a good time to write a list reminding yourself of all the things in your life and the world around you that you have to be grateful for.

If your question refers to a relationship, let gratitude be  your guide.  Be thankful for all you learn from this person.  Truly, there are no friends and no enemies, just teachers along life’s journey.

Be grateful for the laughter and even for the tears.  The attitude of gratitude is a magnet for true love in all forms.”

Today’s Deck:

Wisdom Of The Hidden Realm Oracle Cards by Colette Baron-Reid

Today’s Sharing:

is to inform everyone that my lost bank card was found.  In the pocket of a rarely-worn (now that it’s been so warm) garment which was thrown over the arm of a chair and totally overlooked.

             My new one arrived mere days after the in-person request (and I had been issued a temporary), so there wasn’t any lost-time, and we knew it was in the house some place.  But now, I’m trying to figure out what the lesson was here.  Surely it can’t have been to hang my shit up in the closet?!

Time Spending

             There’s an idea that when we are children, we laugh more than five times as much as when we’re adults.  That, to me, is horribly sad.  (The very opposite, of laughing!)  Also?  It is avoidable.

             When we speak of perspective, we mean our observations.  But it’s also about attitude.  What I was shown this morning felt uncomfortable, and had a personal note to it.

             Additionally, though, there was an overlying sense of Hope.

How We Wait

             I’m a particularly impatient person (no, like really.  Ask anyone I’ve given birth to, or ya know, may have married).  Would I like to change this aspect of my personality?  Hell, yes!  Am I able to?  Well, I’m trying.

             And, that’s what we need to focus on.  The trying.  The attempt.  The “keep at it” feeling of never-failure.

             We’re always succeeding, because we’re making the effort.  I’m already better than I was due to my recognition of the situation.  Can I do MUCH better?  Of course.  But simply acknowledging that this is something to work on has moved me along and helped me to heal.

             Fortunately, there are methods to apply, tools at our disposal, and assistance everywhere we turn.  Our daily draw is a fantastic example.

oracle cards, soaring into joy, laughing, messages,

“Soaring into Joy  ~

‘Childlike wonder fills my life.’

Card meaning:

Celebrate and live life with glee!  Clap your hands in delight!  Be madcap and spontaneous!  All is truly well.

The Universe wants you to know:

Allow a childlike wonder and joy to fill your entire being.  Your happiness makes a difference to others, for as you experience true delight, this radiates out from you like ripples in a still pool and touches the souls of many.

Take time for yourself.  Find ways to experience joy in every moment.  Even when doing the most mundane, boring, or gritty tasks, look for ways to feel genuine happiness.

If you have trouble finding pleasure in certain situations, start small, and eventually you will soar.  To feel joyful is a gift.   It rejuvenates you and heals the world.

Questions to ask  yourself:

What gives me the greatest pleasure?  What might be blocking my joy?  What’s the key to experiencing more bliss in my life?

Affirmation:

Childlike wonder fills my life.”

Today’s Deck:

Gateway Oracle Cards by Denise Linn

Today’s Sharing:

is this view from my front porch.

Yes, usually there IS a cop car in my driveway, however, this is NOT usually someone peeking up from behind it.

Yes, usually there IS a cop car in my driveway, however, there is NOT usually someone peeking up from behind it.

             While Dan was in the back yard, grilling cauliflower, ribs, and tater tots, this curious neighbor was milling around.  Along side were a flock of turklets*, and a mom turkey.  Who nearly got herself stuck on the wrong side of our fence.  Good thing my gate guardian was doing their job.

*That may, or may not, be the official name for baby turkeys.  I might have made this word up.

Dealing. And then Thanking.

            It wasn’t a Scrambled Brain Day, but it started off feeling just as bad.  Something I’d like to NOT do anymore.  I just wanted to yell at the Universe and say, “hey, yeah ya know what?  No more.  Really no thank you, I get it, just stop please.”  I felt unstable (not like I am usually emotionally unstable, that’s actually a version of normal for me).  I felt uneasy.  Like I was waiting for some horrific thing to just fall on me.

          The dentist’s office didn’t let me come in.  I am beyond angry.  We WILL be dealing with it tomorrow.  It’s a 49 second job that will inconvenience NO ONE, and it MUST be done now.  The longer this bridge is out the more damage is being done and the more discomfort I am in.  So… there’s that.

          Today was also the appointment I’d set up for the tree killers to come and trim, under my scrutiny.  Much talking was had.  Fortunately, very little cutting was done.  It was tense and uncomfortable.  And hot outside first damn thing in my day.  (I would have said “first damn thing in the morning,” but we all know that on the clock everyone else uses, that was not really morning, just MY morning.)   So…. there was that too.

          After the bad phone call about not getting my bridge re-glued, and the trauma and anxiety of the tree ordeal, I was just sort of vibrating.  Daniel is reconstructing our back yard fence in bits and pieces right now.  So I went out there to stand next to him, and soak up some sanity.  We talked about all of this, and he, in his reasonable and now very familiar way, allowed me to work this all out.  He’s good at this.  He’s had a ton of practice.

          The other issue we have been dealing with is a lack of finances, which equals food stress.  (We can’t afford to buy any right now, and he gets kinda hungry, what with not being allowed to eat the dog vegetables and all.  I can’t seem to stop the girls from doing that though.)  The rest of our conversation had to do with how we were going to figure out a way to manage some dinner later.  We settled on an easy and low anxiety solution.  Then I pulled some weeds.

           My mother does what she calls her Therapy Work, when she’s in a situation she can’t really figure out, or can’t fix from her spot out there in the countryside.  She wanders around her yard, talking to (or yelling at) her God, and yanking up weeds.  It’s a joke now with all of us.  If we are struggling, just go out and pull weeds.  The physical task is very instant accomplishment and satisfying.  You can see it happen right in front of you: originally a messy flower bed full of weeds, now all tidy. 

            Or in my case, the front pathway (which we have always called The Fairy Walk) with scattered weeds poking up in the gravel, then you yank those out and it looks much better (after I spread the gravel around in a tidy way).  I did this until it got even hotter, then I went inside and read some more of Russell Brand’s book.  (He’s actually written like four or something, several are from when he had a column about some English soccer teams, and the most recent publication is the follow-up to the one I have now.)

           Then I felt ready for my walk.  Dan has that fence work to get through so I went on my own.  Same route as last week.  It’s exactly 50 minutes.  I had barely gotten down our own road when I spotted a herd of turkeys.   We recently found out that there are two separate family units.  This was the smaller group, only about 4 or 5 in their flock. 

            I saw 6 very large and very black feathers as I trudged and one tiny fluffy gray kind.  My ankle issues that came and went last week really wanted to come and stay today.  But I continued to say hello and work on banishing them.  It took longer this time, but eventually I pounded all the aches out.  This was what I got for my efforts.

          It was simply a For Sale sign.  Literally, a sign.  But it wasn’t there the last time I went by.  And it just makes me silly happy when I see my name on things.  I know, I’m a child.  Remember, this is not news.

           If you are able to click on this picture and see it bigger, do so.  There is a hammock in those shadows.  It’s been up for over a week in a yard near us.  And I can’t tell you know badly I want to just go over there and fling my wee self elf into it.

           One of the other things that helped me get through this peculiar feeling day was knowing that our card was really calming.  I’ve been looking forward to reading what it says and then typing it out here for hours now.  It is the last of our Wisdom of the Hidden Realms Oracle Deck, but we’ll go through it one more time.  Partly because it is just gorgeous to look at, and partly because we don’t have another one I want to replace it with.  Also, partly because Colette’s definitions are so well done.  And, I like it.

“The High Lord of Gratitude and Service  ~  selflessness, humility, conscious action.

The High Lord of Gratitude and Service has arrived to help you find your true purpose today.  Feeling gratitude for each moment you experience, and loving what is and what has been, will remind you that every breath you take holds a deep and profound awareness.  Through small actions and selfless service to another, you are automatically placed upon your highest path, whether you are immediately aware of it or not.  The presence of this Ally lets you know that you are on the correct path to fulfilling your desires.

You are also notified that your actions of service and attitude of gratitude will yield riches beyond your wildest dreams, as long as those riches are not the goal you have in mind.  Giving service with no thought of return is what’s required of you today.  This would also be a good time to write a list reminding yourself of all the things in your life and the world around you that you have to be grateful for.

If your question or situation refers to a relationship, let gratitude be your guide.  Be thankful for all you learn from this person.  Truly, there are no friends and no enemies, just teachers along life’s journey.  Be grateful for the laughter and even for the tears.  The attitude of gratitude is a magnet for true love in all forms.”