Waiting for the Better

             I found out a little while ago that Kathy Griffin lost her sister to cancer today.  It was kind of my last straw on a very challenging afternoon.

             Every year now, I expect that this week (and my birthday week) won’t take me down.  And every year, for the past decade, I’ve been hit hard.

             This post is mostly a placeholder.  Just to let you all know, I’m here and I’m going to make it, it’s just so fucking hard.  Grief is stupid and I’m sick of it.

             Take care of yourselves, and each other, do something that feeds your soul, even if that means feeding your body.

             We can only keep showing up, and that’s enough for now.




To Cope

             There are some very challenging planetary forces happening right now, along with yesterday’s full moon.  I’m feeling them personally and am hearing about others who are, too.

             Due to these factors we’re just going to take a quick look at today’s message, move on to our daily draw, an affirmation, and be done with it.

Keep Showing Up

             Sometimes (like now), all we can manage is to arrive.  We’re not dressed, we didn’t bring anything to contribute, it took everything we had merely to show up.  So.  That’s it.

             Often, that’s enough.  Nothing more is asked of us.  (Thankgawd!).  Being is our primary activity.  And ya know what?  That’s totally fine.

             It has to be.  Also, it can be the sign we need.

keep showing up

“Contemplation Time  ~

‘Spend time alone, meditating upon what you truly desire.’

This card indicates that you need some alone time.  Make a firm appointment to be by yourself in a quiet place (ideally, outside in nature or near some plants) without delay.  Make sure that you’ll be uninterrupted for at least an hour.  Take a pad of paper and a pen with you.

Then, spend some time simply breathing, relaxing, and centering yourself.  After you are completely relaxed, write down this question to your subconscious mind on your paper:

‘what do I want to do to next?’

Write whatever comes to you in response, without worrying whether it’s ‘correct’ or not.  Then, ask your subconscious, 

‘what’s my heart’s true desire right now?’

Write down the answer.  Spend time noting your true priorities so that you’ll know how to structure your free time to match what’s happening to you.”

Today’s Deck:

Magical Mermaids and Dolphins Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Affirmation:

I am aware of, and actively appreciating, everything that makes me happy right now.