Our Un-Tidiness

             We’ve definitely spoken before about how our adventure here sometimes leads us down roads and paths we never anticipated traveling.  Well.  I went there this week.  Literally, and figuratively.

             A bit of (formerly mysterious) health situation has now been clearly diagnosed.  And treated (if that’s the right term for: excising).  I’ve had my gallbladder removed, emergency-surgery style.

             What do we learn from shit like this?  Not to take ANYthing for granted, sure.  Not to let a day go by without saying nice words to loved ones, certainly.

             But, also:

life is messy!

             We wear messy bodies, making our messy little journeys, as we experience (and hopefully savor) messy existences.

             Nothing is tidy, nothing is sure, nothing is static.  We, daily, waver and change.  We grow and we have set-backs.  Most of all, we have our lives.   And they, unquestionably, can be a bit of a mess.

             It’s been a shock.  Physically, as well as emotionally.  It has thrown my Intuitive Eating on its head.  It was BEYOND unexpected.  Truthfully?  I am still a bit confused by the entire sudden ordeal.

             And, it’s my new normal.  I must heal.  I must rest.  I must mull over the changes taking place.

             For guidance, I’ve drawn this for us all.  And I’ll be transcribing both directions, they are valid.  As always, they are validating, too.


messy life

“Rescue  ~  16  ~

‘You are always safe and secure,

and free to be yourself!’


Asking for help isn’t easy for many successful people.  However, that’s what you need to do now as you expand your life.

If you find yourself troubled, you can expect help with whatever issue is at hand now.  You need only ask, and assistance will come your way.

The most important support you can count on is from Spirit.  Get into a right relationship with the Divine, and you will see that many conditions line up as if by magic to provide you with all the help you need.

Ask and you will receive.  There is no need to fear.  Safety is a place within.


Are you trying to rescue another?  Do you believe that your live can change someone and miraculously heal this person? 

Or . . . . . are you waiting to be rescued?  Do you believe that someone will sweep you of your feet and take away all of your problems?

Reversed, the Rescue card cautions you against romanticizing your situation right now.  Look closely and see reality as it is rather than the illusion of how you’d like it to be.

You need to step back and rescue yourself.  Trust that the Spirit world will guide you to expose the illusion so that you may discern the difference between truth and fantasy.”

Today’s Deck:

The Enchanted Map Oracle Cards by Colette Baron-Reid

Today’s Affirmation:

( it’s worth repeating )

Safety is a place within me.

I am always safe, secure, protected.

I am free to be myself.






Sunday Sun-fest.

            The heat has arrived here is River City.  Jumped off the train and totally unpacked her bags.  We got plenty warm today.  The weather guessers are saying it won’t last though, like even until tomorrow, so maybe she’s only staying for quick visit.  Fine by me.  And Emmy.  And the dogs.

             This is where my Empress collapsed after going in search of a free couch.  She had her father drive her to see it.  No good.  The search for used furniture continues.  And the hunt for a cool spot does too.  Eventually she gathered enough strength to go out in front and water down the deck after her dad finished giving his plants a refreshing shower.

            I cannot even imagine wearing a huge black fur coat in this heat.  Poor thing.  But he’s downstairs with me now, in the shade and breeze and much more comfortable temperatures of the basement rooms.  Earlier we had received this phone photo from Hanna.

           The accompanying text read:  the thermometer reads “Pretty Hot” today.  So yeah, All Dogs are already done with summer.

           I had to venture out my own wee self elf.  To drive through the library return alley and stop off at the video store.  (That’s right, I frequent an actual Video Store, in a building, with actual people.  Don’t judge.)  Here is what we watched last night.

            Eclectic much?  Highly recommend them both.  Tangled was adorable, the horse is one of the funniest characters of all time.  There were not great reviews for Robin Hood, but I could care less.  Russell Crowe looks like J.D.  So I’m good.  And come on…. Cate Blanchette, William Hurt, costumes???  Perfect.  The gore was totally tolerable too (for me anyway, there were some outstanding, and sure graphic,  arrow killing scenes).  We have a few more, equally as diverse.  I’ll keep you posted.

             As I was leaving the parking lot after I dropped these off, I saw this.  (And sadly, still NOT Tracy.)

           Other than too many Washingtons and Californias and Nevadas the only other out-of-towner I ran across was one from Florida.  Not bad, after the absence of Foreign License Plate sightings lately.

            On our card altar this afternoon we have started a new deck.  This is one I’ve had for a while, and it’s similar to Sylvia’s in that it has no book, just the brief definition on the back.  It’s called Self-Care Cards by Cheryl Richardson.  I know nothing about her, but I’ll be checking out her site after I post this.  She seems to use a variety of artists for her illustrations, many of them have sea themes, so obviously I am a fan in that regard.

          Here is part of what she says about her deck:

“Dear Friends – Thank you for purchasing my Self-Care Cards.  The opportunity to combine beauty with practical advice inspired me to create this deck.  You can use them in several ways.  You might empty them into a basket or glass jar and pick a self-care message every day.  Or, when faced with a decision, you might shuffle the deck, center your mind, and choose one card to help guide you in the right direction….”

    “Help  ~ 

Ask for help.  Receiving is an act of generosity.”

         See?  Brief.  But good.  As well as useful.  I like that we got this one first.  It seems to be saying that no matter what we are going through right now we can ask for assistance and it will be granted, whether we ask the Universe, a friend, or family member.  Doing so would be a gift going both directions.  I will get out my permission slips tonight and focus on receiving some help.

          One last thing to share then, well, you know where I need to be.  My progress was delayed slightly last night because I kept WATCHING the damn movies, and not stitching.

            Em and Han recently shared this website with us.  They said the young woman reminded them of their Auntie Gay, my sister.  Once Dan had watched of few of these video clips though he said, “you guys never knew your mom when she had this exact hair cut.  And was drunk.  A lot.  THAT is who this girl reminds ME of.”   He thinks she’s cute.  And if you don’t laugh at her drunk cooking, well…. maybe I don’t even want to KNOW you!  (Nah, of course I want to know you, but do keep in mind that this is very much what I looked like when I was a drinker.)

Latenight BAD NEWS update:  GAH!!!  My fucking printer just fucking died!