Repair, restore, rebuild.

             This week marks my ten year blogaversary.  I began here, a decade ago, to make sense of my sister’s death.  As a place for thoughts, feelings, and later, messages.

             It has served that purpose, plus so much more.  I have no plans to stop showing up, whether I have readers or not (although, I truly hope I do).  It’s worth my time to sit down, contemplate, type, and ultimately, share.

             My mother told me once, at a major turning point in her life, that she felt the perfect imagery (she could see it clearly in her mind’s eye), was the slow changing of a page, the folding flip of paper, as it turned over, marking the end of one chapter, beginning of another.

             I feel that now, as we transition into a new week, a new month, a new year, and no doubt, a new decade.  I hear the Universe tell us that this movement, this marking of time is


             The recovery and restoration has begun.  We may now go forward, wounded and wearing our scars proudly.  We may move on to the next chapter, the next path.

            We have learned, we have grown, and we have traveled so very far.  We are always better for surviving.  And if all we did was make it through this particular day, well, that is an accomplishment.  One we won’t diminish.

             Thank you, for taking this trip with me.  I appreciate you, and treasure your presence.


May we all find peace.

May we all heal.





Hills and Valleys, Ins and Outs

             Some days are simply more challenging than others.  I hit a rough patch this week (several, actually).  The dates next week (and the ones right after) won’t help get me past that.

            What HAS been encouraging and uplifting, is my family. I truly hope that wherever you are, whoever you are, you have the kind of support I do.  If you do not?  Contact me, I’ll send you a virtual hug and we can chat.

             As I said in our last post, I’m very fortunate to have someone who picks me up when I stumble.  We also have three incredibly brilliant and kind (adult) children.  As a bonus, I have a mom and dad who adore me and are just up the highway.

             When we are struggling, as I have been lately, it’s helpful to go within, to see what messages our Team has for us.  As if in total validation, this card came up.  It is the entire message right now.

             Well, that and a reminder.  Focus on the haves, leave those have-nots for someone else to worry about.

gratitude attitude

“Visualization  ~

‘Card Meaning:

Your clairvoyance, your dreams, and the pictures in your mind’s eye are becoming more clear and powerful.

This card asks you to trust, to develop your visual skills, and to use them in conscious manifestation.’


It is safe for me to see, I am a very visual person.”

Today’s Deck:

Healing With The Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Sharing:

is to thank Louise Hay.  She left us this week, passing peacefully in her sleep.  She was 90, and she was a gift to us all.





More than three and a half decades worth.

             It’s anniversary week (end).  Not for the website, but for my actual, real life, marriage.  35 years since the wedding, (almost) 37 years since I went to get gas that fateful day.

             We’re going to leave town.  Not far.  But enough “away” to have some space and to remember who we are.  Where we came from.  Where our starting point was.

             When I sat down to listen for this post, I was gifted so many memories of our amazing journey.  The road has by no means been smooth, nor luxurious.   It has absolutely been a chaotic fucking ride!

             Here’s what the Universe would like us all to focus on, as we firmly seat ourselves in gratitude for those who have helped us get to this day, this destination:

do the work/feel the feelings

             The thing about being married to the same person for so long is that you kind of get to know them a bit.  (Some of us are better at this than the other.  And it’s not the one you might think.)

             In relationships, as in so many aspects of our life, when we have emotions arise, if they are not acknowledged, they become stuck and rotting and toxic.   When we don’t do the tiny jobs we need to accomplish, then they pile up and become huge tasks we can barely face.

             To tally this many years (semi-)successfully, both halves must do their part, both halves must honour their emotions.  If one falls or flounders, it’s on their partner to do the picking up.

             I fall down a ton.  He always picks me up.  There have been points when he needed me to pick him up, I hope I did as well as he has.

             And I hope for everyone reading this, that they too, have someone to pick up, and someone who will pick them up.

             This is the deck I was directed to for our continuing message.  It is entirely appropriate.  Also, look at the number…..

psychic sense

“Visions  ~  37  ~

Psychic images, clairvoyance, seeing, out of body travel

Mermaids do much of their work, their spirit work, by moonlight.  Under moonlight we can see so much more of what is taking place with each other’s energetic space, and the layers of our energetic field …..

When you connect to the moon, you will feel more whole, more attuned to the cycles of the world, and the fears you may have had around certain issues will fade.  You will allow yourself to see with your psychic vision, and you will speak of what you see …..

You will begin to understand and easily interpret the divine in alliance with your spiritual sense.”

Today’s Deck:

Oracle Of The Mermaids by Lucy Cavendish

Today’s Sharing:

is to thank Daniel.  He helped me with a borrowed car on the day we met/the day we found each other again, and he’s been there next to me ever since, plus so many lifetimes before.

             To you,

from me,

I would truly not have made it without you,

thank you,

more than I could ever say or show.

             Eight, two eight, eight-two.




Existence of Motion

             We seem to be very ocean-themed right now.  (Well, when am **I** not?)  As well as old-adage-minded.

             Today’s message arrives with a piece of art that I came across earlier this week (while I was in search of some sort of belated greeting for a far-away friend).

             The serenity of this image reaches me on a truly soul level.  And as I sat with it, this is what I heard:

time and tide.

             Like the saying: time and tide wait for no man.  But also it’s true that we, as mankind/humanity, are still bound by time and tide.  In a way.

             To a point, we have to honour the pull of Mother Moon, and her tides.  We have to heed Grandfather Time, and his momentum.

             But, sometimes we don’t.  Sometimes we can move forward at our own pace.  We can take as much time as we need.  We can go at a rate which is nourishing and healthful for just ourselves.

             It’s about being an individual in tune with our Time and our Tides.  The inner clock that we, just our own single solitary selves, chime to.

moonlight fantasy

             Instead of flipping a card on our altar, we are going to enjoy this image.  An illustration which found its way to me, in exactly the right time.  On precisely the right tide.

Today’s Visual Gift:

is from Dana Queen, and it’s called “Moonlight Fantasy” from her Sea Cove Gallery collection.

Today’s Sharing:

is to say thank you.  Profoundly, hugely, and from my heart, thank you.

             Those of you who sent kindness and greetings for me this week, it was appreciated.  More than I can say here (or anywhere, for that matter).


Advancing Development

             The other day I was catching up on my local happenings (by reading a week’s worth of newspapers).  There was an editorial about “since when is change bad?” which I just couldn’t force myself to look at.

             I’m in the process of learning this.  But that doesn’t mean I am always open to hearing about it.  As Dan Savage says, It Gets Better.  And I know this, I just have to be READY for it.  (As do we all.)

             This morning I woke up with a very positive outlook on the entire subject, though.  And that’s totally down to what our message felt like.

The Good Growth

             What I was shown, and the emotions it evoked, were nothing but positive.  I actually got out of bed thinking, “well, that’s not so bad!”

             Being open to newness is about intention and purpose.  We can’t help but admit that every single day is changeable, as is every hour and minute and second.  It’s a truth we face and can’t deny.

             Do we have to embrace it constantly?  Not really.  But when we do, it truly does make the rest of our existence much more smooth and calm.

              Growth and change and transition are all part of us, part of our soul (and our body, too).  Why not allow them (as our daily draw said yesterday) to flow on through?

             Right now on our card altar, this messenger brings a reminder of how little it takes to do just that.

god and goddess

“Wren  ~  Drui-en  (pronounced as Droo-y-en)  ~  

Humility, Cunning, God

The card shows a wren holding a feather in its beak, as if guards its nest filled with eggs.  Tradition calls the wren’s nest the ‘Druid’s House.’  

A bolt of lightning represents Taranis, the bull-god of thunder and lightning, the oak tree, and the wren.  The Ogham sign in the stone is of Duir, the oak.

Drui-en allows us to glimpse the beauty of Goddess or God in all things.  He tells us that ‘small is beautiful’ and that self-realization lies not in grandiosity or apparent power, but in humility, gentleness, and subtlety.   

Cunning, if tempered with humor and good intent, is a way of achieving great things with an economy of effort, and a rational and honest use of the achievement of others.”

Today’s Deck:

The Druid Animal Oracle by Philip and Stephanie Carr-Gomm, illustrations by Bill Worthington

Today’s Sharing:

is this view from the outside of our garden gate.


Every year, all year, I try (obviously with poor results) to keep the lilies and irises on the INSIDE of our fence……..

             The lesson here?  Maybe sometimes we NEED to be on the other side of that barrier!