Our Un-Tidiness

             We’ve definitely spoken before about how our adventure here sometimes leads us down roads and paths we never anticipated traveling.  Well.  I went there this week.  Literally, and figuratively.

             A bit of (formerly mysterious) health situation has now been clearly diagnosed.  And treated (if that’s the right term for: excising).  I’ve had my gallbladder removed, emergency-surgery style.

             What do we learn from shit like this?  Not to take ANYthing for granted, sure.  Not to let a day go by without saying nice words to loved ones, certainly.

             But, also:

life is messy!

             We wear messy bodies, making our messy little journeys, as we experience (and hopefully savor) messy existences.

             Nothing is tidy, nothing is sure, nothing is static.  We, daily, waver and change.  We grow and we have set-backs.  Most of all, we have our lives.   And they, unquestionably, can be a bit of a mess.

             It’s been a shock.  Physically, as well as emotionally.  It has thrown my Intuitive Eating on its head.  It was BEYOND unexpected.  Truthfully?  I am still a bit confused by the entire sudden ordeal.

             And, it’s my new normal.  I must heal.  I must rest.  I must mull over the changes taking place.

             For guidance, I’ve drawn this for us all.  And I’ll be transcribing both directions, they are valid.  As always, they are validating, too.


messy life

“Rescue  ~  16  ~

‘You are always safe and secure,

and free to be yourself!’


Asking for help isn’t easy for many successful people.  However, that’s what you need to do now as you expand your life.

If you find yourself troubled, you can expect help with whatever issue is at hand now.  You need only ask, and assistance will come your way.

The most important support you can count on is from Spirit.  Get into a right relationship with the Divine, and you will see that many conditions line up as if by magic to provide you with all the help you need.

Ask and you will receive.  There is no need to fear.  Safety is a place within.


Are you trying to rescue another?  Do you believe that your live can change someone and miraculously heal this person? 

Or . . . . . are you waiting to be rescued?  Do you believe that someone will sweep you of your feet and take away all of your problems?

Reversed, the Rescue card cautions you against romanticizing your situation right now.  Look closely and see reality as it is rather than the illusion of how you’d like it to be.

You need to step back and rescue yourself.  Trust that the Spirit world will guide you to expose the illusion so that you may discern the difference between truth and fantasy.”

Today’s Deck:

The Enchanted Map Oracle Cards by Colette Baron-Reid

Today’s Affirmation:

( it’s worth repeating )

Safety is a place within me.

I am always safe, secure, protected.

I am free to be myself.






Our Very Own.

             First off, we are now in the Shadow Effect of Mercury, as it returns direct. Retrograde ended this afternoon at 1:12 p.m.  Even with our new attitude, this was a difficult one.  I’m glad it’s almost over.

(Note:  and then we lost a good portion of this post, right after I finished it and BEFORE I hit the Auto-Publish button.  Once again, I say: fuck you, Mercury.)

             Okay, next, did everyone see Corina’s comment from Thursday and Friday, where she mentioned her favorite numbers?  I remarked about seeing triple fours.

             I got a picture of it.  And then it happened again.  It comes up probably 5 times a week, or more.  Just like this.  I glance at a clock, and there it is.

repeated numbers symbolism, 444


             I’m also seeing 3:33 (twice a day), and plenty of twos.  Every time it happens, I say “thank you.”

             When I woke up today our message was clear and loud.  Even if the dreams that brought it had already begun to fade.

This is your show,

you can switch seats any time you like.

             The imagery here is exquisite.   Front row, way in the back up on the balcony, smack-dab in the center, on the aisle.  Doesn’t matter, we are the ones who get to decide.

             It truly IS our life to live.  Or to stay too far from, or to rush up against quickly.  Any place we view it from, it’s still the only path we have right now, in the only body capable of walking it.

             So much of what this is telling us is in our daily draw as well.

oracle cards, angel messages, emergence, front row to life

“Angel of Emergence  ~

It is time for the real you to emerge.

This card mirrors the start of a wondrous transformation that is about to occur in your life.  For far too long now, you have felt second best and remained in the background.  It is now time for the real you – the beautiful, talented, and wondrous you – to emerge.

This is the emergence of your true nature which until now you have denied to most of those around you, and often, also denied to yourself.  Over the coming days and weeks you will begin to feel a newfound sense of confidence and excitement for your life.

Embrace it!

Give thanks to God(s) and the angels, and above all, respect, love, and honour the beautiful and talented person that you are.”

             In other words, it’s up to us to select the spot from which we want to  live our lives.

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods, Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

Tonight’s Kitchen Adventure:

involved a delivery, and an idea.

fruit salad and pizza

Right, I know it’s blurry. But this is better than NOT seeing it.

             Greasy pizza?  On a Jammy Day?  With home-made fruit salad because we’re out of greens?  Hell yeah!

             One of our best creations-out-of-nothing.  We used up all kinds of produce.  I added coconut and poppy seeds (why not?), and he grabbed some mint from the front yard.  Half an apple, one orange, a handful of craisins, some grapes, (fresh!) pineapple cubes, yogurt, and honey.

             Last night I read a blog with comments full of meal-planning tips.  And I just can’t get behind any of it.  Yes, it absolutely works for MANY people.  But not for me.  I’ve never been able to do it.  Also?  I don’t actually want to.

            Tonight’s lunch (dinner?) was invented in seconds, because that’s what we felt like having (and were able to afford right now, thankfully).  Prescheduling what we eat simply can’t work with Intuitive Eating.  Or maybe it’s just that my brain/stomach doesn’t see farther ahead then later into the same day.  Yep, that could totally be it.

             For me, it’s more about feeling than thinking.  Which makes for spontaneous eating.  And the key component, it becomes a much more appreciated meal.

Survived another one.

           As I write this we have less than an hour until that dastardly Mercury straightens itself out.  I think maybe we can say we lived through it.  Not unscathed by any means, but we did not die from it either.  Phew!  Dodged a bullet there folks.  Now all we need to get past is the Shadow Effect and by January 17, we should be in the clear.

             My day was exhausting.  And I’m still not done with it.  Had erranding on the list, one of the quests involved getting the right type and number of calendars (may end up having to order some).  Hauling a truck load (literally, we had filled the cargo area of Daniel’s Testosterone Machine) full of boxes and bubble wrap to the mall, and then I had to UN-load it.  (What a huge freaking pain in the ass this turned out to be.  Not to mention the assorted small injuries I sustained in the seemingly endless process of it all.)  Went to my swimmy/exercisey class, and had to work extr-y hard because the pool will be closed on Friday.  We are shuffling a vast portion of household belongings and furniture around for Empress (you remember, she’s moving but not really moving).  There was phoning and texting and more phoning about our break down schedule tomorrow for the kiosk (and did I mention all those gawdamn boxes?) as well as arguing with Liberal Supervisor because he can’t seem to understand how we are NOT allowed to pack up left over merchandise DURING mall hours.  Ugh, simply tiresome, the entire day.

                  I have lost track of my foreign license plate scrap of old re-used envelope (yes I know shocking) but I now have a fabulous new journal to document such important data.  (Crap, I just realized I forgot to take a picture of it.  Tomorrow, promise.)  Thank you Kelly!!!  Dan and I saw one of the Mystery Dakotas today, which was what reminded me of my half-assed reporting here lately.

                     Look what arrived on my doorstep yesterday.  

            Remember when I donated a peso or two?  I got this!  Can’t wait to NOT have a job for a bit and wear it around the house.  Although, it would probably be more worthwhile if I wore it someplace that actual humans might see it.

                       I also finished another subversive tea towel. 

              Emmy decided she liked the first one better so she is leaving this one for her father.  (She noticed that it had a lovely lemon tree on the other end.)  I have one more going right now, with another made-up phrase of my own.  Should be done next week, and I will definitely be photographing it (hope it makes sense to someone besides just my own wee self elf).

          I will be responding to your comments after I get this up, but thanks for all the interest in my contest.  I am writing all the names down and when I close the entries on Friday night I will transcribe them all on to nice little slips of paper (and possibly I’ll even use my good fountain pen), in preparation for the drawing.  If J.D. comes by we may use one of his hats, but I was also thinking that since Dan will be making the random selection it might be more appropriate to put them all into one of his big mixing bowls or favorite stock pot.  (He says chances are good that we can make a short video, but we’ll be doing a few testers first so I don’t have some sort of a melt-down on Sunday if things go horribly wrong.)

            We are back to our regular rotation around the card altar and have arrived again to The Druid Animal Oracle.  Apologies for non-reptile folks, they seem to like appearing in groups.

“Earth Dragon ~ Draig-talamh (pronounced Draig-talav) ~ Power, Potential, Riches

The card shows a coiled dragon guarding a hoard of treasure in its cave.  An old inhabitant of the Welsh village of Penllyne, who died at the turn of the century, insisted that his father and uncle kill such dragons.  In his boyhood he had seen them: coiled when resting, they ‘looked as if they were covered with jewels of all sorts.  Some of them had crests sparkling with all the colours of the rainbow.’  When disturbed they glided swiftly, ‘sparkling all over’ to their hidden places.

  The Earth Dragon brings us face to face with our potential.  Within us we have a treasure house of riches, of powers and capacities, which we can learn how to use.  In the past we may have been denied access by the guardian of this treasure.  But now we are coming to understand that this sometimes fierce guardian is in reality an aspect of ourselves.  By coming to know and love Draig-talamh we will be able to unlock the secrets of our heart, and at the same time we will find ourselves discovering the beauty in the very earth itself.”