Strength by Association

             I was going to say that it’s been a difficult past week in Mental Health, but truly, EVERY week has its challenges, for so many of us.  We don’t hear about the non-famous folks who are also struggling.  And that’s where my focus has turned.

             It’s not even really about “reaching out” as all the media is reminding us.  It’s more about the

staying connected.

             There are people who think this is our only life, and that there is no Source.  Who believe that we’re just bouncing around out here randomly, and then we die.  Well, that’s not how I understand it.

             Our goal is to do the very best we can, and the prize is that we can then go Home.  If our journey causes more pain than we can tolerate, sometimes, we bail early.

             This option leaves behind more hurt than can be measured.  And yet.  There are moments, times, people, who can only see that avenue, and no other.

             We can never know what our tolerance is until we have reached the breaking point.  It is one of the most individual aspects of who we are.

             Staying in contact with our loved ones, our co-workers, our community is the very best way to keep that pain from overwhelming us.  Just knowing that there is someone, anyone, we can depend on to share a tiny bit of that pain with can be enough.

             Another suggestion is to find what eases the discomfort, even for a glancing second.  And then, to share it.  To say, “hey, this works for me” so that others may, too, find a moment of relief.

             As always, it takes me no time at all to arrive in front of the most perfect stack of cards with the most validating message.

angel messages

“Angel of Self-Worth

You are currently undervaluing yourself;

It is time to regain your self-worth.

You are so much more than what you are portraying to the world and those around you.

The Angel of Self-Worth is here today to reflect unto you all the beauty, love, and light that you are, and to help you regain your sense of self-worth.  Feel her healing light penetrating your aura this very moment and affirm to yourself:

I am a being of light and love.

I love and value the many wonderful qualities that I possess.

From this moment forward, I will honour and value myself, and all I am and all I do,

in the knowledge that I am part of Creation.

I am worthy of love.

I am worthy.

Repeat this affirmation several times each day, either out loud or in the silence of your heart.  Reflect upon each word and truly believe and own each one.  Express each word with all your heart and soul.

As you begin to value yourself, you will find that others start to value you.”

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods, and Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Sharing:

is to say, without question, at times like these, when everywhere we turn there are reminders of suffering, please, practice Self-Care.  Take your three minutes, wrestle them out of every single fucking day.  You’re worth it, I’m worth it.

             Spend your valuable and sacred time sitting quietly.  Relax.  Don’t move.  Listen.  Recharge.  Breathe.  Perhaps even think about sending soothing and healing light to those who have more pain than they can carry right now.




Truly Who (and Where) We Are.

             We developed a theme today.  And it ran.  All day.  It was about how things actually DO happen when they are supposed to.  And how delays, detours, and down-right blockade diversions are precisely what we need when they step into our direct paths.

             Of course, during the collapsing time, we are convinced that this is a disaster and we’ll never make it out alive.  The other side just seems impossible to reach.  But then, we survived.   And we are strong.  And often, we have a really good story to tell.  Or, in the case of our beautiful (and massively talented) friend Amanda, a song to sing.

             What I woke up with today did not really give me a clue as to how very insightful it, eventually, turned out to be.





             Then, our daily draw pops up with a big ol’ huge heaping helping of validation.  Nice one, Universe, nice one.  (Please note, the photo is horrible, and I have no idea why.  Pretend it’s all sparkly/pretty, like THESE images.)

amethyst, crystals, oracle cards, healing stones

“Amethyst  ~

spirituality, positive transformation, meditation

You are being urged to embrace your shadow side.  Take an inventory of all those aspects of yourself that  you are afraid to show the world because you perceive them to be bad or inadequate.

Meditate on these qualities.  Acknowledge them, see how they serve both you and others, then love them, and bring them into your heart.

When you realise that every aspect of you serves a purpose, there will be no need to deny half of who you are.  Just be yourself and understand that there is nothing in your life to fix.  There are simply aspects of yourself yearning to be embraced and loved.

This is a profound change – a time of positive transformation which will have a lasting impact on every area of your life, and to some degree, on those around you.”

             We ARE who we need to be and we ARE doing what we arrived here to do. The best way to understand all of it is to listen.  Sit quietly, go within, hear the stories that our soul tells.  And most importantly, live in a genuinely loving way.

             Because, bottom line?  We’re doin’ great, and this journey is an absolutely terrific one.

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s  Mileage:

was to the pool and back, 3.839 in 25 minutes 4 seconds, at a leisurely pace of 9.1 MPH.  With Dan, who could not get his smarty-pants phone to hold a signal for the mapping program.

Tonight’s Kitchen Adventure:

has yet to be taken out of the oven.  Remember that volunteer tree we found in our backyard last year?  With fruit on it?



             This summer’s crop (seen in the above view) is massive (comparatively speaking, the last harvest yield was: 3).  So we created a mixed-fruit crisp for dessert, using these guys and the front yard blueberries.  We’ll let you know how it turns out.

LateNight Sharing:

is THIS dog walk* that “the guys” went on while I was here in my computer chair.  (I sent them out for ice cream to go with our baked treat.)

*Be sure you zoom in, because holy crap, it’s hilarious.


             As we all know (or MOST of you know, anyway), Jenny Lawson has become famous.  Much more than she was before her book took off all over the planet.  She’s brilliant, and it’s no secret that I adore her.  One of the things she’s so good at, that I like best, is her honesty.  Critics who don’t find her funny, or pan her writing, simply haven’t read enough of it.

             She says things like “depression lies” and reminds us that no matter what our situation, there is always hope.  I’m a BIG proponent of hope, as you well know.  Those of us familiar with her story know how many challenges The Bloggess has already faced.  And yet she writes, regularly.  I am NOT comparing my own mediocre self elf to her greatness, but I am saying that I kinda know the feeling.

            These unsettled emotions of mine (or as I said in the comments recently, my diluted sensations) are certainly fading, the overwhelmingness of it all lessens with each day, but I’m still not all back yet.  I thought of Jenny because we never know when, why, or even for how long, this type of shit will linger.  It just SITS on us, heavily, like a grotesque and smelly blanket made of mold.

             What has seemed to help me, as much as I am loath to admit it, is going outside and doing something.  Turning in to a sporty person, so late in life, is still an odd (and somewhat unfamiliar) concept for me.   But it works!  I took the bike down Hilyard today and bought a lock for it.  There is a new organic frozen yogurt stand down there at Sundance, but it had a bit of a line, and I realized that my paper dollars were too few for a treat.  So I just went home.  Slowly.  It was hotter than I’d first noticed.

             Not to worry, I took it easy and rested  nicely when I arrived safely at The Burrow.  I didn’t nap, like this guy, but I did put my feet up.

napping small dogs

Too hot to move.

             Max is getting more used to me sneaking up on him with my camera.  He no longer cares.  Also, see above mention of the heat finally arriving here in River City.  (And his girl has been gone a lot the past few days.   The two of us are kinda pathetic.)

             Yesterday I received a gloriously up-lifting phone photo though.  Both lovely and symbolic.  Bonus: sea-near-by!  Seriously joyful.

beach finds

Beautiful beach treasure.

             Thank you Anna, for sharing this with us.  And for thinking of me.  I hope the coast was fabulous and you had an exquisitely terrific time.

             When I went into our card altar room earlier* the next deck in the rotation just didn’t speak to me.  I stood a moment and waited to hear who WAS calling out.

*For a note about my new “morning” addition, see the bottom of this post.

oracle cards


             (That is my creative way of blocking out some of the illustration while still showing the basic color scheme and some of the art by placing other cards, backs up, over the rest of it.)

oracle cards

This view,
also edited.

“Angel Of Expression  ~

Speak your truth and express yourself clearly.

There is something you are not expressing, because you fear hurting someone you love or care for.

The Angel Of Expression has shown up in your reading today to encourage you to speak your truth and express yourself clearly.  Know that the truth, when spoken honestly, clearly, and with love, will never truly hurt anyone.

Lack of self-expression is soul-destroying for all concerned and prevents life’s natural flow.  The Angel Of Expression understands your fears regarding this issue and is here to help you through this difficult time.  Allow her to help you find the courage to face this issue clearly. 

By expressing yourself honestly and clearly, this situation will heal in accordance with the highest good of all concerned.  Yet do not try to  predetermine or control the outcome. 

Trust – for the power that made you both, will heal you both.”

             While there is a lot wrong here, there is also plenty that is right.  (Which is kind of my over all impression of this entire deck.)  Take out what works for you, apply it, and move on.  I like the strength aspect of the message, so that’s what I’m going to focus on.  (Yes, I DO see the irony in blocking the visual while speaking of honesty.)

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods, and Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

toothbrushes to go

Not my favorite color.

             Our new hygienist at the dentist’s office is a woman who believes you can’t brush your teeth too much.  (She is a proponent of On The Go Brushing, which she does in her car.)  So, in order to continue with my on-going enterprise of never losing another damn tooth, I’m on-board.  What I do first thing upon awakening each day is changing (due to suggestions by *A* as well as new, more physical elements) so it seemed like a perfect match to incorporate these new procedures around oral health right there as well.  I’ll keep you posted.