More evolving.

             Most of us are perpetual students.  Learning and reaching.  Others feel perfectly comfortable As Is, and without the need to find life lessons, to seek answers.

             I’ve come to understand that I’m kind of an in-between.  There’s not always somewhere to take an investigation, to me.  Sometimes I feel as though I’ve come to the end of my interest on that topic.  Other places, other times, I’d like to keep finding out more.

             This is what’s been in my head lately.  Both ways are fine.  As is the way of doing a little of both.  When we follow the obvious path, we still learn.  When we step off the trodden road, we learn in a different way.

             The Universe is calling it

true higher education.

             We’re talking soul lessons, deep down education of our spirit.  Learning in our own individual way, and going as far as we feel comfortable with.  The follow-up can be brief, or take ages to reach.

             We know now that our own way is best for us, and the way of others suits them better.  If we don’t know it, well …. maybe we can strive to.

             When we recognize our unique geniuses, apply our own best practices and methods, we can climb so much higher, we can advance so much more smoothly.  Part of that though, is to honour our rate, our tools, as well as our flaws, our “failures” (even though they aren’t really failures at all).

             Our message right now focuses on the particular and wonderfully singular nature of each one of us.  And how we use that to do better, every day.  No matter how this advancement, this spiraling up, may appear or manifest.  The lessons are our own, and that’s the most important part.

             Here for validation, this reminder.  So welcome, and so appropriate.

abundance and wealth

“Citrine  ~

wealth, creativity, abundance, healing

Your financial concerns will soon begin to dissolve as a steady stream of abundance starts to flow into many areas of your life.

This is not abundance solely on a monetary level but abundance also of creativity and healing.

You are being asked to let go of any fear and guilt you may be holding on to in regard to your wealth and prosperity.

Be thankful for the abundance that you are about to receive.  Honour it and put it to use in ways that nurture and replenish your spirit.

You deserve to be and to have all your heart desires.

Lovingly recognise the abundance you eternally hold within your heart and you will manifest abundance through all you think, say, and do.”

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Sharing:

is this view from our dinner table tonight.  The Wilder Apartments.

downtown eugene

              We met with family, had food, and enjoyed the evening.

 

 

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Tiny Trials.

            Tests of faith are fairly common, no matter what your belief system is.  We question shit, it’s how we’re made, it’s the way we learn.  Some of us question WAY more than others, but we all still kinda do it, if we are doing what we’re supposed to be doing in this lifetime anyway.  It’s just that the challenges come at us from different directions.  And with differing types of depth.

           This whole Osho/Bhagwan/Acharya/Raja situation was a bit like that for me.  I am great with where this settled in my head though, and am looking forward to working with the cards.  It just all took a bit of time and pondering/listening/contemplating for me to understand what it meant in my own situation.  But questions may still linger with some of you.   Feel free to ask them.  As aways, I’ll answer anything. 

            When I was going through the deck for the first time, a single card jumped out and wanted to be the one we looked at.  (I also mentioned in the comments section about how they all went flying because they were so slippery and new, it was certainly entertaining.)  As yet, I am still unsure how we’ll be incorporating them on the altar, but for now, here’s the message we got right out of the box, literally.

            Because this is based on the Tarot, I wanted to see if there was much of a match-up, like our Queen of Pentacles, and the Queen of Rainbows.  I’m not thrilled with the interpretation of this one.  I can already see that Mr Osho and I will be disagreeing on some basic principles and meanings as we begin this relationship.  In going through the guide book these past few days, I have noticed more negativity than I would usually be comfortable with.  See?  Tests and trials.

            My interpretation of the Robin Wood card would be concerning our friendships, the variety of levels in our (personal as well as business) relationships, and basically how we connect with others.  The Dream card seems to be more about the illusion of relationships and how we arrive here alone and then leave alone.  Not very cheery, but valid, in its own right.

           In our regular rotation we’ve come back around to the Crystal Oracle, and it has a very welcome message.

“Citrine  ~  wealth, creativity, abundance, healing.

Your financial concerns will soon begin to dissolve as a steady stream of abundance starts to flow into many areas of your life.  This is not abundance solely on a monetary level but abundance also of creativity and healing.

You are being asked to let go of any fear and guilt that you may be holding on to in regard to your wealth and prosperity.  Be thankful for the abundance that you are about to receive.  Honour it and put it to use in ways that nurture and replenish your spirit.  You deserve to be and to have all your heart desires.

Lovingly recognise the abundance you eternally hold within your heart and you will manifest abundance through all you think, say, and do.”

            Nice!   And here’s a bit of synchronicity, when I went to pick up the Zen set this exact crystal caught my eye while I waited to make my purchase.  I saw an entire bowl of them in a really beautiful display.  Our lessons continue to be relevent, and SO freaking connected.

          This afternoon I had a test (or two) of physical faith.  It was threatening rain all day, and had even begun to sprinkle sporadically last night.  Could I really keep up with this movement plan as our Summer ended and the Fall fell on my head?  Yup.  Turns out that I absolutely could.  And did.  I put on a light jacket, over my oh-so-glam work out garments, and pedaled off.

           About three rotations up the hill, there was a crashing sound from down near my hooves, and we lost all forward momentum.  Investigating further it appeared to be something involving the chain.  Hmmm.  I reached down, and …. actually TOUCHED  it with my FINGERS!  Getting oily and grimey in the process, and some how even FIXED it.  (I know, I was shocked as well.)

             Here is a text exchange from last night.  I had gone out (as I mentioned yesterday) and was on my way back home when I remembered that I had wanted to figure out how far my trudges were taking me, so I took the Wee Walnut on my “route” -letting Daniel know what I was up to.

Me  ~  I walked on the blocked off part so this is as close as we can calculate, today’s journey, by the car’s marker: 79.9 to 83.3  -whatever that math is.

Him  ~  3.4

Me  ~  Speed walked in one hour ten mins.  With several wee jogs.

Him  ~  A bit under 5 mph  –  not bad at all.

Me  ~  Lol.  I even trudge in Pentacles.

            Today I rode that same way, including the “blocked off part” (which is a section of road that has a dead-end near a busy-ish intersection, but is accessible to pedestrians and bicyclists).  It took me 35 minutes to pedal, with only two short bits of getting off and plodding up some small hills.  Under cloudy skies with some intermittent inclement weather!  (At this point I’m showering so damn often that really the rain is probably not going to be as much of a factor as I thought it might be.   My hair hasn’t been entirely dry for seemingly endless days now.)

            Weight loss continues to evade me.  But seriously, I have GOT to be far healthier than I’ve been in decades.  Right?  (RIGHT?!)  Crap, I really hope so.  (No, I changed my mind, don’t actually answer that, it was a rhetorical question.)

LateNight Pride Moment:  my Hurricane had a blog post picked up by a national site the other day.  Yes, my snarky girl is making her own wee self elf known out there in the world of news and journalism.  We couldn’t BE more damn proud.