This Altered Now

             The feelings I have about Summer aren’t what they used to be.  So much has changed in our lives.  Very little looks as it once did.  Metaphorically, as well as physically.

             As a child, and then a young mother, I adored the idea of no schedules, no school, no rain, no constraints.  The all-too brief season of heat was what I lived for all through the rest of the year.

             Now, well now I’m just hot.  Now I’m working.  Now the weather no longer has much to do with my day, or even my night.

             Still, we want to remark on the moment.  We want to recognize the turning of the wheel.  We want to remind ourselves that each season is special and important.

             On Tuesday night, at 9:12 p.m. I will stop, and I will acknowledge that brief occasion, that ticking minute, when Spring has gone, and Summer has arrived.  I will stand in the longest day of the year and I will Choose Joy above all else.  No matter the temperate, no matter the circumstances.

             Our message is just this.  Be aware of time.  Sit with our experiences and feel our emotions.

             There is value in reflecting and savoring our memories.  There is also honest need to step forward into our next chapter, with appreciation of where we are, where we have been, and where we are going.

             In validation, we have this beautiful card altar draw.

oracle of the mermaids

“Endurance  ~  43  ~  Keep going!

Like these mermaids, you are reaching an important stage of your journey, and it is essential that you continue.  There will be times when you feel like you have had enough and you wish to suddenly stop moving . . . . to sink, rather than to swim.

But the mermaids are here to ask you to continue swimming, tired though you may be, full of doubt though you may feel.  The second part of your strength is readying itself, and will come through, just exactly when you need it to.

Keep going.  You are strong.  You will go so much further than you currently believe that you can!

This is not the time to run back, or to allow the waters to take you.

This is the time to continue the journey you committed to.

You must keep going.  Eyes forward, intentions focused.  Purpose clear.  Re-commit.

And keep going!”

Today’s Deck:

Oracle of The Mermaids by Lucy Cavendish

Today’s Sharing:

is this quote I recently came across on Instagram.

Do no harm, 

and take no shit.




Transitioning Process

             Even before that Tower look-alike arrived, we’d been dealing with Change.  So today’s message wasn’t a tremendous surprise to me.

             (The way it was presented took a bit of figuring out, though.  Ah, the joys of being a dyslexic channel.)

Same, same.

Different, different.


             It’s like this.  We go along, go along, go along, then . . . . CHANGE!  Or, we deal with chaos, deal with chaos, deal with chaos, then . . . . n. o. t. h. i. n. g.

             Very much like when the energy of an explosion billows and lifts bits and pieces at the very edges of its impact zone, we are feeling the ripple effect, the hot waves of a blast, from a major upheaval.

             (Which was exactly the image I was given, hence my difficulty in wrangling the entire narrative into place.)

             It happens, we get used to a regular routine, our own version of “normal” (even when it’s anything but).  The Universe did not say we are becoming complacent, but the general feeling was there.

             Either way, we need to remember that our journey is about the movement of travel, the adventure we are living right at this moment, not what came before and not what’s coming up next.  Mindfulness, that’s still our most valuable tool.

             Ya know, in amongst all the changing and shifting and healing and learning.

             But also, back around the card altar, where we’ve returned to our regular rotation, this draw is a validation.  Showing us that, as we do the work, the rewards are many.

challenging tarot

Ace of Pentacles
In its most contrary pose.

             When we come across this path, without the challenge, we need only walk the length of it and place what we want upon the column.  It becomes ours.  When it’s in this direction, we have a bit more to do.

             Is it about the changes we’re experiencing?  The growth we’re going through?  Absolutely.  No doubt.

             We can still expect a nice payment, but we can’t take for granted the fact that when we put in the hours, when we do the time, we earn our treasure.

             That, however, can be a very good thing.  We know exactly what it took to get this far.  Because we walked every single damn step.

Today’s Deck:

Robin Wood Tarot

Today’s Angelic Affirmation:

Dear Archangel Jophiel,

thank you for helping me to beautify my thoughts and my life.


Remainders and Renewals

             Cycles.  We are looking at cycles.  Spiraling ever upwards, we live in change.  It’s not our favorite house, in fact, we’d really like to move out.  But, that would be changing, too.

             What the Universe wants us to focus on right now is our leftovers.  Our messy piles that get almost forgotten. Almost, not quite, stepped past or kicked aside.

Re Building and New building.

             Finishing a chapter in our adventure can be untidy.  We’ll end up looking like yesterday’s bedraggled feather.  And yet…. we’ve still got much left to do.  We’ve still done so much already.

             The raw fact is, life’s just pretty unorganized, and it naturally gets disheveled.  We are part of that.  We move through it and out of it.  (Or in my case, we move through it and simultaneously stay in it.)

             To accept the grubby bits as well as the shiny, we make more progress.  We learn faster and we understand more.  No judging, merely observing.  Not good or bad, simply messy and tidy.  Cycling through.

             As with our (hugely validating!) daily draw, this spot we’ve come to on the card altar, it shows our forward momentum as well as our mindful balance.

queen of clouds reversed with XXI

“Queen of Clouds  ~  Mastery of Mind  ~  (reversed) Morality”

             Which I’m not going to type out from the book this time.  Basically it’s about being hung up on what is supposedly the “right” way to live.   As in, that bullshit old status quo of “what would the neighbors think?”

             Fortunately, we have traveled well past that crap, and are now moving on to:

“Completion  ~  XXI  ~  Major Arcana

Here the last piece of the jigsaw puzzle is put into its place, the position of the third eye, the place of the inner perception.  Even in the ever-changing flow of life there are moments in which we come to a point of completion.  

In these moments we are able to perceive the whole picture, the composite of all the small pieces that have occupied our attention for so long.

In the finishing, we can either be in despair because we don’t want the situation to come to an end, or we can be grateful and accepting of the fact that life is full of endings and new beginnings.

Whatever has been absorbing your time and energy is now coming to an end.  In completing it, you will be clearing the space for something new to begin.  Use this interval to celebrate both . . . . the end of the old and the coming of the new.”

Today’s Deck:

Osho Zen Tarot

Today’s Sharing:

is to say that I’ve recently been on a search for more variety in music to play during my pool class.  Today I’m listening to sounds like THIS.  I love all of the new selections that have crossed my path, but really, steel drum island bands truly make my heart happy.


The Significant and Consequential.

             Today’s messages is directly connected to yesterday’s draw.  As much as Change can be challenging, we know that fighting against it is the worst possible approach.

            I was shown potentially fatal scenarios, and yet, survival was the underlying emotion.

Highly dramatic,

or not, 

these events are meaningful.

             When we are aware of our surroundings, our feelings, and our overall health (mental, physical, and spiritual), we are better equipped to understand why these situations are in transition.  Seeing that, we can more easily accept it, and relax into it/them.

             On our card altar right now, we’re still within the regular rotation, and we’ve been brought around to a truly exquisite image for meditation or contemplation purposes.

             (Or, ya know, not.  The choice is yours.  I’m just the radio here, and broadcast what is being suggested.)

crystal messages, oracle cards, smoky quartz

“Smokey Quartz  ~

emotional blockage, negative thoughts, release, grounding, protection

This beautiful Smokey Quartz crystal has appeared in your reading today to help you to release and express the many emotions that you have kept suppressed for quite some time.

There is an emotional cause to all physical symptoms, so know that by acknowledging and expressing how you feel, you allow healing to occur.  Do not be afraid to cry, for your tears will wash away your sadness and restore your emotional, mental, and physical wellbeing.

There is a jewel to be found in every teardrop!

Trust!   This card signifies that healing is occurring right now.”

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Affirmation:

is for our new month.

“Life really does love me –

this I know for sure.

Loving myself reaps so many rewards!

I feel incredibly rich and blessed this month.”

From Louise Hay

Adjustable Conversions, and End Of An Era.

             Yesterday (seemingly out of the blue?) I happened to (re-)read the following line, credited to Heraclitus (pronounced as Her-uh-klay-tees), that ancient philosopher:

the only constant is change.

             It’s not just valid and meaningful, this statement is also a Universal truth.  And it’s (as I texted to a friend this afternoon) the very basis of my most primary Life Lesson.  If you held a gun to my head and forced me to scribble out a mantra, it would be: RELEASE!  (And not even in an ironic way.)

             Today (with or without my consent) that concept was put into motion.  Or rather, it was reinforced.  Because something arrived on my doorstep which will insist that I let-go and move-on.

mermaid water bottles

We have our miles to keep us close, no one can ever take that away.

             Earlier last week I (somehow!) left my Mermaid Water in a grocery basket.  Realizing fairly quickly, Dan called the store.  They’d go look.  I was reassured.

             When we got home, I called.  Just because.  Talked to the same guy.  He said he’ll go look.  I was reassured.

             The next day, we went to get it.  Sadly, it was not to be located in the Customer Service booth.  But I hadn’t given up.  (I was angry and pissed off, but I had not lost all hope.)

             Later that night, I had the deputy drive me back.  Speaking with management, trying to get him to understand the significance of this particular water bottle.  To no avail.  He looked and looked and looked.

            That’s when I gave up.  She was gone.  I would never hold, nor pose, nor photograph her again.  Our last outing had been a good neighborhood wander.  And the day before that, we’d been to the Fair.  The miles we’d gathered were massive.  She’d gotten me through many challenges.  But now, it was time to say goodbye.  I was heartbroken.

blue replacement water bottles

Oh, are we taking pictures, Nana? Good, I’ll sit right here.

             This is her replacement.  (Please ignore the dog wearing a hooded sweatshirt, he’s not new.)  I won’t be able to call this one Mermaid, because that name means something else.  And besides, Replacement is a completely different color.   (Perhaps she’ll just be known as Blue.)

             When Kelly heard about my tragic loss, our beloved friend (and now Doctor) immediately jumped into action.  She even contacted the manufacturer directly.  Tragically, it was for naught.  Mermaid Water is no more.  No place, no longer, nowhere.

             Thank you, all who loved her.  And especially you, Dr who cared enough to replace her for me.  New Water and I will strive to love each other.  Not unlike an arranged marriage, fondness is sure to grow.  It may take some getting used to, but I believe we can manage it.

             When I awoke this afternoon, not actually on time, our message was there, waiting for me:

believe what feels right,

question that which does not.

             It sounds so easy, and yet, it’s not always.  For some folks (me!), letting go isn’t easy, either.  I have faith though, in all of us.

             When I reached out for the daily draw, standing in front of our card altar, the direction of my hand felt like it was being changed, to reflect further validation and support.

archangels, transition messages, oracle cards

“Career Transition  ~

Archangel Chamuel:

‘Your life purpose is triggering a blessed career change.

You’ve prayed for help with your career, and it’s now occurring.   Sometimes change is perceived as stressful, yet I’m helping to clear the old from your life to make way for the new.

Pay close attention to your repetitive ideas, dreams, and visions, as these are Divinely inspired roadmaps pointing the way along your desired path.  You may not see the entire road (or where it’s leading), but each step will be lit along the way.’

Working with Archangel Chamuel:

His ability to see clearly helps us find things, situations, and people.  He’s renowned for helping people find the career best suited to their purpose and passions.  Call upon Chamuel as your career counselor often!”

             (Yes, we ARE ignoring the illustration.  Let’s not mention it, but DO pay attention to the words.)

             Who could argue with that?  Who would question these statements?   Not me.  This message is pretty freaking clear.

Today’s Deck:

Archangel Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Mileage:

was a quick run down to a bike shop* and to see my favorite independent bookseller, for just 4.894 miles, in 28 minutes and 03 seconds, in 10.4 MPH.

*Over the summer we seem to have lost one set of my reflective cuffs.  I can’t comfortably wear rainpants without them.  This was made glaringly evident on Thursday.  In the torrential downpours.

FLP Report:

includes an anomaly that I can’t actually explain, we saw 2 from Iowa and 2 from Florida, not repeats, different vehicles merely hours apart.  Then one from Maine.  And today, another Florida.