Deservedly

             Was everyone able to sit down for a quick few minutes and practice the suggested meditation in yesterday’s daily draw?  If not, bookmark that page and try to get back to it.  (Sooner, rather than later.)

             It’s directly connected to today’s message, so I recommend carving out a few moments.  (I did mine while plugged in to a Tibetan bowl-ocean waves app on my phone, while the Deputy was trying out a new recipe and listening to baseball games.)

Must Needs

             In this case, self-care rules the day.  As I mentioned, it’s been challenging out.  All over the place folks are struggling right now, the energy levels are extremely intense.

             To counter this (or rather, to work on fully accepting it), we must begin within.  It always starts with ourselves.  That’s the line we must cross before we can go any further.  Our significant first and intentional step.

             And when we grab those few holy moments, those quick sacred minutes, for slowing and quieting the stress, the healing immediately begins.  We have shown our subconscious that we matter.  That we are worth this gift, the gift of time and space.

             If it’s tough, the road rocky and full of obstacles, and we don’t step out of the struggles?  We STILL don’t feel better!  And then, no one else does either.

             We’ve gained nothing by doing nothing.  When, we could gain something (something enormous), by doing this small and selfless thing.

             Standing before our card altar earlier, I was directed to the best helpers we have access to.  Absolutely, we are validated.  Who better to take care of the care-takers?

archangel azrael

“Comfort  ~

Archangel Azrael:

‘I am with you in your time of need, helping your heart to heal.’

Additional Message:

‘Even the strongest person experiences upsetting situations, and there’s no shame in taking time to heal your heart.  This is a good time for quiet reflection upon your true feelings.

Write them down in a private journal, and then call upon me to bring comfort to your heart and mind.  I can help you sleep better at night, and put your mind at ease.’

Working with Archangel Azrael:

Azrael’s aura is a beautiful shade of vanilla cream, a very pale yellow tone.  He surrounds grieving and dying persons with this loving light to bring comfort.  When Azrael is around, you may see eggshell-colored twinkling lights in a room.

The crystal, creamy yellow calcite is calibrated to Azrael’s energy, so holding or wearing it may lend additional comfort.”

Today’s Deck:

Archangel Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s FLP Report:

begins with this view from downtown recently.

Virginia!

Virginia!

             Then, today, we saw another Virginia.  (So, of course, Dan had to sing the song.  Loudly.)

             We also noticed two Michigans within half an hour of one another, not the same vehicle just staying close to us.  Then earlier in the week, one Wisconsin, a BC, some plate that got past us (could have been Texas, but doubtful), and an Ohio.

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The Appearance of It

             We’ll be examining Perspective today.  But before we do, let me play the song that woke me up this morning.

             (Preface and BackStory: even though I grew up during the 1960s and ’70s, I was never a Beatles fan.  Some of their songs though, are now so thoroughly embedded into our culture that they seem to always have been there.)

             Watching that video is the first/only time I’ve ever read the lyrics to that song.  I had no clue what it was about.  And yet, it comes with a feeling of being the perfect accompaniment for what our message is aiming towards.

To See Truth

             There’s a hashtag that truly captures our current absurdity of waste, and it works well here, too.  #FirstWorldProblems

             It’s the old, I complained about my shoes until I met a man with no feet mind-set.  It’s how we (ME!!) take small stupid inconveniences and blow them up to seem so very much worse than they actually are.

            One of the things Daniel asks me (on a seemingly regular basis) is, “does that REALLY hurt, as in pain, or is it more of an annoying discomfort?”  He knows that if I’ve completely stopped making any noise at all, the damage is severe.  But if I’m still bitching loudly, then perhaps an emergency room visit is not on the day’s schedule.

             Perspective, and truly observing our circumstances.  It’s what we need to be paying close attention to now.  Taking a sad song, and making it better.

             On our card altar, this daily draw is the answer to “why and where” I get this information.  It’s sent.  And then, I pass it along.

archangel azrael

“Hello from Heaven  ~

Archangel Azrael:

‘Your loved ones in Heaven are doing fine.  Let go of worries and feel their loving blessings.’

Additional Message:

‘Your loved ones aren’t far away; in fact, they are quite near.  In your quiet moments, you can feel their presence.  These really are true visitations, and I ask you to trust your intuition.

You may notice dream visits from deceased love ones.  Know that your loved ones are happy, free of all suffering, and want the same for you.

Your loved ones want to work with your guardian angels to help you be peaceful, so watch for other signs.’

Working with Archangel Azrael:

He is known as ‘The Angel of Death’ since his primary role is to help people cross over at the time of their physical departing.  Far from being a morbid role, Azrael surrounds the newly crossed-over soul with loving light to make the experience uplifting and comforting.

Azrael helps deceased loved ones make contact with their living family members and friends.  You can ask him to bring a message or dream visitation from your loved ones at any time.”

Today’s Deck:

Archangel Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Sharing:

is this view, sent to me from my Empress earlier.  (I replied with more phone photos of many dogs.)

We don't know those people on the sand, ignore them.

We don’t know those people on the sand, ignore them.

             They went to see a friend in his first cage match competition, which happened to be held on the Coast.  (Friend won, yay!)

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Living Real.

              I had an entirely different type of post planned for today.  Instead though, there was harshness within my range of hearing, before I was even conscious this morning.  (And we’ve talked recently about how my single-layer focus can be problematic.)  The neighbors behind us continued with last summer’s tree killing project.

             No question, the most grating and irritable noise that could possibly wake me up is the scream of chain saws.  It’s almost physically painful.  I did pretty well rolling over and covering my head, but eventually it was just time to get up.  I avoided all the glass on that side of the house.  And I did my very best, clinging onto that Zen Balance I’ve worked so hard to maintain.

             Then, I got some sad family news.  It was a lot in one afternoon.  Later, we just left.  Fortunately this was one of Dan’s bonus days to make up for the earlier training shifts.  And there’s a Home Show happening.  We used it like therapy.  Being in the Moment, being Present, and enjoying the beauty of Spring’s promise.

pink flamingos

I wanted it all.

             This organization has a booth, sometimes an entire room, or even a stage, every year.  For all the events at the convention center.  I look for them each time.  I have brought home the BEST bargains from amongst their gently used offerings.  Tonight, we found a sweater.  And then we saw the fudge booth.  I was much cheered.

             Our daily draw message helped too.  As I knew it would, which was why I went in to my card altar room, practically first thing after I got out of bed.  I looked (with much diligence) for ways to keep me ABOVE the on-going arboreal murdering, and it worked.  But I certainly didn’t do it alone.

angel cards

“Comfort  ~

Archangel Azrael:

‘I am with you in your time of need, helping your heart to heal.’

Additional message:

‘Even the strongest person experiences upsetting situations, and there’s no shame in taking time to heal your heart.  This is a good time for quiet reflection upon your true feelings.  Write them down in a private journal, and then call upon me to bring comfort to your heart and mind. I can help you sleep better at night, and put your mind at ease.’

Working with Archangel Azrael:

Azrael’s aura is a beautiful shade of vanilla cream, a very pale yellow tone.  He surrounds grieving and dying persons with this loving light to bring them comfort.  When Azrael is around, you may see eggshell-colored twinkling lights in the room.  The crystal, creamy yellow calcite is calibrated to Azrael’s energy, so holding or wearing this stone may lend additional comfort.”

Today’s Deck:

Archangel Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s FLP Report:

Michigan

Last Night’s Kitchen Adventures:

were both good and bad.  (MY incident was the bad, as I’m sure all of you guessed.)

Not my intention.

Not my intention.
(Just keep moving,
nothing more to see here.)

             We watched a show recently on cheese.  So I put together the ingredients (mostly gathered from our fridge) for a batch of home-made deliciousness.  The deputy’s skills did not disappoint.

home made mac and cheese

Baked mac & cheese with veggies.

             It wasn’t really that green.  But there WAS some  broccoli in there.  And cauliflower.  And carrots.

LateNight Fight Update:

this makes it official, she’s a competitor, after all that work, and all this time.

Vegas fight cards

Fight Card

             Tomorrow (Saturday) at 1:30, Las Vegas time.

Saved.

             Well, we’ve turned a corner.  Not a big huge one, but the direction is no longer downwards.  It’s too early to say how my convalescence is going, but I’m not worse today.  For the first time since Saturday night.  Definitely a good thing.  Also, no worries about dehydration, even this sick I have my Mermaid Water by my side.  And Dan brought home a carbonated beverage.

             Look what happened while I was in my sickbed.  Fall !

fall in eugene

eXtreme autumn

             I looked out there today when I got up (the first time) and it was like BOOM!  All the leaves, except about four of them, are now brown and leaping off the trees.

            Another gorgeous image is the card that jumped out at me when I (finally) ventured into our card altar room.

archangel messages, counselors

“Counselor  ~  Archangel Azrael”

             This one talks about how we are all called upon, at some time or another, to be a helper.  It also tells us that this particular Archangel is the one we need to ask for help from when we deal with death or sickness.  Very appropriate that I was drawn in that direction.

            So, help each other, help all who cross your path, as you have helped me here lately.  Thanks, more than I can say.

Today’s Deck:

Archangel Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Sharing:

love, your freelance friend

 

That Damn Brain of Ours, plus The Post-A-Day 2011 Challenge.

             It was my awesome shoes, I just know it.  I wore my outstandingly fabulous custom high tops today, and things just fell into place.  SO much less stressful than yesterday and the day (or three) before that. 

                I stood on a chair a little while ago and took this picture.  Not that we don’t already have plenty of shots around now, but ya know, I was really feeling the joy.  Which always causes me to (over) share.

            My boy and I had such an adventure day.  (Just ask him, it was highly entertaining.)  We made the call and got an appointment for the window replacement tomorrow afternoon.  I toted him (in the Wee Walnut, which makes a grand total of TWO times he’s ridden with me) across town and retrieved a replacement battery for his POS vehicle.  Then we scrubbed the cable ends (didn’t need to do the posts, they were brand new) with baking soda, water, and an old toothbrush (I learned this trick in auto shop about ten zillion years ago, but it continues to come in handy, it was one of the cool bits of car knowledge I originally used to lure his father into my clutches).  Got the crappy engine to turn over, and… voila!  He can now drive it again.  Well, after he gets the window replaced and we clean out all the broken glass.  (We also ran one secret errand, but I can’t speak of it here until next week.)  He LOVES doing shit like this with me!  LOL!

         There is a challenge currently on WordPress that I am going to sign up for.  I would usually turn my small freckled fairy nose up at such a thing, because I am disdainful of competitiveness and I detest challenges of all sorts.  But, this one has to do with blogging everyday of the year.  I figured I’ll probably be doing that anyway (now that I’m on a biscuit) so why not just make it legal.

            I’ve had this Brain vs Bad Habits  phenomenon clinging like a barnacle to my own wee brain ever since I read that article (which I am not going to link to again, you can just go back if you really want to see it, besides, I know you faithful JulieLanders looked at it the first time I mentioned it).  I think the reason it’s stuck with me is that I have actually conquered that demon before.  I have reconfigured my thinking, so I know I can do it again.

             A few years back, in my continuing quest for the perfect weight, I went to see a hypnotist.  It didn’t work exactly as I had hoped, but what did come out of it, was my new habit of drinking plenty of water.  Prior to this visit I drank mostly pop.  And before that I drank pots of black coffee.  (Seriously, pots.)  I’d drink a full pot of coffee to get my day started, then, a couple of hours later, take a nap.  After my rest, I’d get up, and do it all again.

           For me, drinking water was reminiscent of being a kid and having to quench my thirst by turning on the garden hose.  It tasted like I was licking a rusty lead pipe and it did NOT make me less thirsty.  It just annoyed me.  So the thought of purposefully drinking unflavored, and uncaffeinated, plain old sink water, sounded about as appealing as downing a bucket of bleach.  After the hypnotherapy session I got myself a bottle of water and drank it dry.  Then I refilled it.  (I must add here that our town has some of the best tasting public water supply in pretty much the world.  Don’t know why, but I’ve heard it said, and I’ve compared it to other places, like the burg next door and the coastal towns we’ve visited in the past few years.  Yes, our water is certainly way better than those places.  And better than a lot of brands I have purchased even.)

               I just kept doing this, drinking re-filled bottles of water.  I still do it.  Sometimes I will buy Talking Rain fizzy water and add a bit of that to my re-filling.  But mostly it’s just sink water.  It made a bit of a difference at first.  As did my old lady swimmy/exercisey class.  They have both become a good habit  (and I know I am healthier for this adjustment).  Because I kept doing them.  I do NOT like movement of any type.  But I get twitchy now, if I think I might miss my pool time. 

            Even before the water drinking, I broke an Eating-and-Reading habit by pure will, and the distraction methods you employ with toddlers.  It’s been so long now that I don’t remember when I did it.  I used to NEED to eat something when I got up and read the paper.  I’d sit down with the news and have toast, or old cold pizza, or a bowl of cereal, or really just about anything I could find (many days it was a handful of cookies).  It was mindless eating because I really wasn’t hungry when I first got out of bed, I just THOUGHT I was.  (Truthfully, I kind of think I’m hungry all the time, but I’m not sure exactly.  It’s THAT messed up inside by head.)

               I didn’t know, at the time, that I was over-coming this dopamine/bad habit thing, I just forced myself to move away from the place I was Eating-and-Reading.  I would carry the paper to another room, so I wasn’t sitting at the kitchen table.  Or I’d read it in spurts throughout the day.  Eventually I “forgot” to eat while I read the news.  And now I can sit down with the paper, skim the headlines, never feeling as though I MUST be feeding my face.

            My goal is to step away from the Eating-and-Reading scenario completely and break that brain induced habitual and mindless face feeding.  I’ve read just about every diet book out there, and all the stupid women’s magazine suggestions.  Most are completely useless to me.  One or two ideas have some merit though.  The breaking pattern idea can be applied with  these tools.

             Physically getting up from my seat on the couch (taking the book with me of course, wouldn’t want to spend any spare moments NOT reading) I plan on walking to the bathroom and brushing my teeth, instead of walking to the kitchen and foraging for a snack.  I’ll drink my water and then when it’s gone, I will walk to the faucet and refill the bottle.  Thus I will NOT be eating while I’m reading.  That’s the plan for now anyway.

               As I said, I’ll keep you posted on my progress.  This new endeavour is a much more worthwhile project than a blog-a-day challenge.  However, it will be combined.  Which, I think, is gonna be a pretty cool way to go about both.

            Our card today is from Doreen’s Archangel Oracle Cards, and when I flipped it over it made me smile.  Because I had already texted with J.D. about what our afternoon would entail.  I am comforted when I am able to help my kids.  And as ridiculous as my children see me at times, I know that they are still comforted by the fact that I am there when they call.  (Even if I am wearing outrageous shoes and am a total embarrassment to them in a store.  Having a bizarrely dressed, loud, pretty-much-certifiably crazy little mother at your side, can garner much sympathy, and many smiles.)

“Comfort  ~  Archangel Azrael:  I am with you in your time of need, helping your heart to heal.

Even the strongest person experiences upsetting situations, and there is no shame in taking time to heal your heart.  This is a good time for quiet reflection upon your true feelings.  Write them down in a private journal perhaps, and then call upon me to bring comfort to your heart and mind.  I can help you sleep better at night, and put your mind at ease.”

     Or, you can spend the day with a guy who is funny, kind, and forgiving of your oddities.  If he is someone you gave birth to, you get bonus points.  And much comfort.