A Remembering.

             Note to self elf: comfort pedals are ideal for summer with no shoes, the opposite of that in a winter rain storm wearing tennies.  Just sayin’ -not a great ride tonight for pool class.  If I was counting anything I’d give you the number of times I nearly crashed my sorry ass because my feet slipped.

             But I’m not.  So I won’t.  Instead, I’ll just reassure everyone that I’m fine.  My “whole” body never left the bike, and I did NOT fall off.  Even though I arrived soaking wet.  Rain gear is totally worth every peso I spend on it.

             Now, back to business.  I find it immensely interesting how different days and dates mean such different things to different people.  For me, January always meant that an incredibly special friend’s birthday was approaching.

             Since she’s gone now (or at least, in a place that I can’t physically access, although I do still hear from her), this first month of a new year carries another meaning.  (Lots of other meanings, but on an emotional level, it’s no longer as joyful.)

             This is kind of what I was shown as our message today.

In memorial.

              It’s about how we remember those who have crossed over before us.  Do we still mourn their loss, or have we gotten to the point of smiling over fond memories?  The entire topic of grief, as you all know, is a particularly challenging one for me.

             The whole thing (images, feelings, message) was uncomfortable.   However, it was also necessary.  And I know that.  But much like yesterday’s, knowing it and being happy with it aren’t the same thing.  At.  All.

             I was directed to this stack for our guidance, but we’re going without the illustration.  (I’ll explain why in a few.)  Let’s just imagine a perfect angel view, looking with our mind’s eye, each of us seeing precisely what we need to see.

“Beloved One  ~

Archangel Chamuel:

‘I am helping you with your spiritual relationships.

Love is in and around you right now.  You don’t need to search for it.  Rather, by holding loving thoughts and conducting loving actions, you attract and manifest love in all aspects of your life.

Call upon me to guide your thoughts and actions……..’ “

             There is a nice, easing relief when we hand over that control to another.  It frees us of having to worry about the situation or solution.  The same can be done with painful emotions.

             We need our memories, but we don’t have to keep the parts that hurt.

Today’s Deck:

Archangel Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Sharing:

is part of yesterday’s.  It’s going to be a slideshow, if I can manage it.  Our dashboards have been changed by WordPress, so this may be tricky.  If there’s pictures in the post, they ALL have to be included.

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              So.  That’s how much my hair grows.  Apparently.  In six months.  Yes,  as I said when I cut it off (the second time), the plan all along has been to let it come back, then I’ll donate it again.  With trims and check-ins twice a year.

3 thoughts on “A Remembering.

  1. So glad you’re okay! You need the pedals with teeth. And apparently we’re going from single digits to the 50’s by Saturday! *shakes head*

    Saver let her hair grow out again as well. Hers is long enough to donate this year. They usually come to campus Feb/Mar., so she’ll be a shorty again soon!

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    Just make sure the school is never associated with Locks Of Love. Very corrupt, bad business practices. There are LOTS of way better organizations around. (Like the one I donated to.)
    J

    11:11 p.m.
    1-9-14

  2. I don’t expect I’ll ever let my hair grow out long enough to donate again, and as I don’t intend to let it go back to it’s natural color until it’s all white/gray/whatever, they wouldn’t take it anyway. But I do appreciate those of you who do donate. It’s a wonderful thing. My thing is I can give blood: I just need to start doing that again.

    I was thinking about grief this morning and about how things from my time with Mom are still affecting me now and how I’m trying to change them. Being quite the old hand at this grief thing, I do know that it’s different for everyone, and each grief itself is different, but even that knowledge still doesn’t make it any easier or quicker to go through.

    And you have one more good thing about January: it’s my birthday this month! (Aquarius here, in case no one could guess.) Usually I find it such a dreadful month for a birthday — one month after xmas, a few days after my brother’s death — but I’m trying to change that to thinking that at least I have a celebration of my own birth and life to make the month a bit brighter! And I am a proponent of the birthday week.

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    Birthday week! Oh yeah.
    J

    11:12 p.m.
    1-9-14

  3. Maybe you should have winter pedals and summer pedals?

    Hair looks great! I probably will keep mine short although I have enough hair for about 3 people when I grow it out. It seems to be going white . . .

    And holding on to loving thoughts through gritted teeth right now. I just want to smack a few people, really, really hard.

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    Well, since Kelli divided my last donation into 4 separate sections, I totally know what you mean. I also have plenty.
    J

    11:13 p.m.
    1-9-14

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