I wanted Triscuits for HOURS after that! It was painful, this want. Which sort of just made both Dan and I laugh. But then I was thinking about it later, and I wondered if this aspect of my
psyche weird-inner-workings disordered personality, regarding food obsessions, will diminish once I’ve moved past these four-decades-old issues.
Wouldn’t it be so fucking cool to be like OTHER people, and able to withstand ads, marketing, mere mentions of edible items? What must that be like? And could I ever get there?
We covered a few new-ish topics (and one WAY old one) today, *A* and I, in our afternoon appointment. And made some plans for upcoming events. I’m really pinning my hopes on getting “better” and dealing with the grief, the traumas, the down-right wrongness of my former thinking.
A similarly uplifting feeling began even before I became horizontal earlier today though. Our channeled message was a lovingkindness type of gift, not just aimed at me, but to all of us.
Compassion for all,
beginning with our selves.
Not to be left out, our daily draw just jumped right on to that same bandwagon. Very validating,this teamwork.
“Goddess of Beauty ~
You are a wondrous being of light;
there is nothing to change or fix.
You are a wondrously beautiful being of light, yet you cannot see it because you are comparing yourself to others instead of looking honestly and lovingly at yourself.
Meditate upon the image on this card and allow your light and natural beauty to shine through. You are beautiful just as you are. There is nothing to change or fix; just love and accept yourself as you are.
As you honour the beautiful person that you are, others will feel the light and warmth radiating from you. As a result, you will attract wonderful and generous people into your life that will love and appreciate you for all you truly are.
Just be yourself – that is where your beauty lies!”
Have you all heard the song by P!nk (Alecia Beth Moore Hart) called Fucking Perfect? (I’d link to it but the video is way triggery and the lyrics-only site has a misspelling that irks me too much to recommend it.) As soon as I’m done typing, I’ll cue up my CD, grab this card, and tune in for the suggested meditation.
If you can do something similar for yourself, please do. Please, please do.
Angels, Gods, and Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno
was a ride to downtown and back, with one detour (cookies!), 8.498, in 49 minutes 30 seconds, with a better pace of 10.2 MPH, because, no break-downs. (Thank you, Daniel, for fixing my chain.)
Today’s Kitchen Adventure:
has no photo. But it was good! Hot lemon ginger tea, dumped into a jar, over candied ginger bits, and ice cubes.
Kansas, Missouri (times 2), and a Michigan, it seems that, yes, most of the faraway students have gone home.