It can be so damn difficult to make positive changes in our lives.  This is simply a fact.  But what we don’t hear about, when we strive for this New & Improved self, is that it’s even more difficult for those who have known us a long time to accept our changes.  Which can often cause lapses, or drops back into a bad place.

             No one is ever shocked when I slip and crash, or sprawl in a messy heap, falling off of my Making A Better Me wagon.  I certainly never am.  So it feels doubly challenging to KEEP getting better, to keep getting back the fuck up.  This thought saddens me, but it does NOT always send me spiraling down into a depressive state.  As much.

             This afternoon I was aiming for a goal, and I missed it.  By mere minutes.  Then I shot for another one.  Second fail.  I tried one last time.  Third attempt = three strikes yer out.

             None of this put me over the edge, as it previously would have.  Sure I was down and kind of emotional, definitely disappointed.   I was not, however, completely lost/balled up on the floor/unable to move or speak.  This is huge improvement.  Huge.

             The heavy feelings and darkness were both acknowledged, I recognized the loss.  Then, I chose not to look at it any more.  I released it.  I opened my hands and let it go.  I consciously examined my discouraged attitude and turned it around.  Being thankful for the opportunity, if not the result.

             I  hung up my wet raingear, changed into dry clothes, and read a library book on the couch.  Later I had a snack* and got Dan out the door to work.  Now, I sit here sharing my accomplishment.  It feels like sometimes the little steps are more important than the big ones.  Or maybe it’s all just a part of the process.

*Empress made some muffins yesterday, and since she is über considerate, she set aside part of the batter for me, leaving out the bananas that she put in to everyone else’s.

             On our card altar, the message made me laugh, due to the timing.  Literally.

oracle, gateway, and self-care cards

“Taking Action  ~

‘I enthusiastically embrace life’s boundless possibilities.’

Card meaning:

Don’t hesitate!  Whatever you have been putting off, now is the time to act.  Stand tall, raise your fists to the sky, and leap into action.  Break out the champagne, for victory is in reach.

The Universe wants you to know:

Action creates momentum.  Whatever you have been wishing and waiting for, this is the right time to move forward without looking back.  Quicken your spirit by taking action now.  Even if you have to face your fears in order to do so, look them in the eye with a calm and clear gaze and forge ahead.   The action you take now will reap immense rewards in the future.

Questions to ask yourself:

In what area of my life should I take action now?  What blocks me from acting, and how can I overcome this?  What is the most direct action that will yield the greatest results?


I enthusiastically embrace life’s boundless possibilities.”

             Once more, this set of cards hits it out of the park.  The purple person is slightly odd, but otherwise I like this one as much as I’ve adored all of the others so far.  That hint of a rainbow above the bendy tree just says “here’s yer sign” to me.

Today’s Deck:

Gateway Oracle Cards by Denise Linn

Today’s Mileage:

on my wee Fool’s Errands was a mere 3.314 at a staggeringly slow rate of 8.6 MPH in a brief 22 minutes, 56 seconds.  On the plus side?  I was out on the bike.

FLP Report:

from the past few days is not much but some that make me really wonder when I see them, like Delaware.  Also two Illinois representatives in one day, and then two Michigans, plus whatever that one is that says “First In Flight” (and it’s not the one Dan kept thinking it was, Ally knew it though).  In yesterday’s traffic and rainstorms several got past me that I absolutely couldn’t see, nor recognize.

Today’s Sharing:

comes from New Jersey and Washington.  First, Karen Buys sent me this phone photo.

feet and feathers in new jersey
Her feet, for comparison purposes,
and also maybe to keep it from getting away.

             The 2013 Seattle Sibling Weekend has gotten underway, as we saw when J.D. sent us that shot of his hotel keys yesterday.  This morning I woke up to a panoramic view from Hanna’s apartment building roof.

seattle rooftop views
On a clear day……..

             She’s in a new place now, with some cool new perks.  Like that vista above.  Thanks both of you, for your generosity.

12 thoughts on “Gettin’ It and Goin’ With It.

  1. Congratulations on the noticed improvement! And good for you for noticing and acknowledging the improvement, and for releasing the discouraged feelings! But, one thing: no such thing as a “fail.” If you did your best, then whatever you did was just great, even if it wasn’t what you had set as your expectation.

    I have been feeling very inspired with this Venus/Mars conjunction, and felt compelled to create art, so I did! (Well, I started a piece, at least) 🙂 Very validating card!

    Wow, huge, awesome feather! Thanks, Karen B.!

    And, wow, that is an incredible panorama! Congratulations, Hanna!

  2. Yep, First in Flight is North Carolina. And I’m with Corina, not a fail…simply arbitrary target not reached, with the success coming in the form of letting go of it. I am enjoying the Siblings in Seattle updates on Facebook from Hanna and JD…it sounds like they’re having a blast.

  3. Yay! for noticed improvement! And DOUBLE Yay! for releasing! I’m really, really, REALLY bad at that part. Go You!

    What a cool feather. Hawk? maybe? I hope you kept that one Karen!

    And Anna’s right. It’s North Carolina for the license plate.

    Does my running around cleaning the damn windows and putting up screens yesterday count as action? It is such a conflict. I would love, in the summer only, to have glass slash screen walls to let as much of the outside in as possible. But eventually the damn things need cleaned if you want to see out of them. Have I mentioned just how much I enjoy doing this? (Do take note of the heavy sarcasm.) I need to make a poster that says “HOMECARING, not cleaning!” I still a couple more to do, whimper…

  4. I’m loving the message. Have done way more sitting than is good for a body in this past six months. I’m taking action. Getting back into walking and swimming.

  5. This is a wonderful message. I’m planning a week of rest, but then it’s a jump into action! Walking. Job hunting. Networking. Social networking. Revising my novel. I’ve been a slug for months (or years), so it is now time to change that.

    I’m so proud of you for not letting not reaching the goals you intended break you down into a heap on the floor! That is so HUGE and wonderful. You have made great and humongous progress and should be very, very proud of it. Excellent for you!

  6. Start something new eh. Unfortunately that something new has to be an alternative to the pool because I have either yeast or fungi in my ear. Don’t know what but I’ll figure out something.

  7. Action creates momentum –> I was just thinking about this yesterday, which is when you drew the card, right? Time for some action for me, I think, even though it scares me silly. Congrats on the baby steps, which actually sound huge to me.

  8. Oh, I do embrace life’s boundless possibilities. So needed that today. Health issues are eating my lunch and dinner today. I will overcome.
    Cheers to you, Julie. And, wow, what a view Hanna has. She must feel like she is on top of the world. Endless skies.

  9. I was going to comment yesterday and I failed. So, there. We’re a matching set. 😉
    I think it is either a turkey vulture or a Canada goose feather. I’m leaning toward goose. And go read my new post.

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