Found it! Just as we knew I would. The bottom of my left foot located that missing (and hideously jagged) glass shard from our most recent kitchen catastrophe. (Later another one showed up, on the counter.) I felt *crunch* and PAIN! at the exact same moment. Then I shouted for Dan to come upstairs please, and bring his best cop flashlight.
After hopping around to get the “good” tweezers (not in the bathroom, not over here, not in there, fuck! Where did I put them this time and why can I never find them?), we joined forces. By which I mean, of course, that I collapsed into a chair, leg straight up in the air (practically blinding him with my toes) so that he could perform the necessary extraction.
Holy crap. Tiny sharp shit really hurts when it is unexpectedly stabbed so deeply into flesh. Jeez. As he yanked the chunk out I thought I could feel every horribly lacerating edge. Gah. Glad THAT’S behind us! (And then I put away the tweezers, where they belong!)
This kind of brings me to our topic today. (Yes, we sort of have one.) Pain. And how it’s a vital, and yet terrible, part of our lives. We have to deal with it. But we also need to deal with giving ourselves credit for how far we’ve come, when we begin that road to healing.
This is one you want to appear upside-down. Because it means we are heading OUT of that phase. Finally. There has been so much sadness and loss lately. Everywhere we turn, a passing. Or a physical trauma. We need to address this, then let it all go.
When we face a situation, uncomfortable or not, we give it power. In our lives we are going to have loss, it’s a fact. So we need to look at it, honour it, admit our sorrow. Then, release it.
The Element of Air here comes with an additional emotional factor. It hurts. The actions and words of what we go through, the process of living, at times, is just plain old painful. The image in this illustration shows that. We can SO relate to how this feels.
The difficult part of being here, embodied, learning our lessons, is that we MUST experience the bad to appreciate the good. It’s one of the Universal Laws. It’s also one of the ways that helps us to get more out of our positive and wonderful times. We have something to compare them to. It’s how being human works.
Even if our losses might not be so recent, we can still relate well to this message. Honour those tears and that heartache. Not by wallowing in it, but by giving it the respect and time it deserves. When you feel ready to move past, ready to travel the healing path, do so at your own pace. But remember to look back with compassion for your grieving self. While continuing to keep your eyes on the hope-filled road ahead.
For everyone who is going through this wretched pain right now, physical as well as emotional and spiritual, we are with you. We are here if you need us, but mostly, we are thinking of you. We hold our own Sword situation up with yours, joining us together to gain strength. We all hurt. And we all eventually heal.
Robin Wood Tarot
Having said that I would try to get a shot of all three Grand Dogs, I wanted to keep my word. But it’s not easy! Here’s the best I could do.
about the same as yesterday’s. I went to the library (which is two blocks from the gym) and then I stopped at this little market.
LateNight Ink Update:
these muffins happened. Because, they needed to.
(They turned out not-too-moist, but totally eat-able, I had mine with honey and that worked very well. Want some? We have plenty.)