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Winter Warmth, inside and out.

            The next time I hear that there is nothing wrong with our planet, and that global warming is a lie, I’m going to poke someone’s stupid eyes out.  Daniel and I walked today, in the near summer-like temperatures.  It was over 50 damn degrees when we left the house around 3 ish.  At the end of December.  In Oregon.  Yeah, we got a problem, and that’s a fact.

             Sadly, we enjoyed the hell out of it.  (I know, it’s so wrong isn’t it?)  We were being grateful just on general purposes, for our outstandingly terrific kids, for the clear skies, and for the functioning healthy bodies which propelled us along for four and three-quarter miles this afternoon.  His job, on days like this, is to distract me while my Seattle girl is on the road going in the Away direction.  (She arrived safely, in case you were wondering.)

             Speaking of directions though, look at this.  Yes, it’s way blurry, doesn’t matter, you’ll understand.

              A Four Forked Road.  Which just seemed to be so damn meaningful!  (Not sure what’s up with my camera, let’s ignore the entire situation and hope it fixes its wee self.)

             Moving on now to our other message and then we’ll get back to sharing more from Solstice.  (This card wanted to be right side up, and that’s all.)

“The Camel Boy  ~  small steps, asking for help  ~

When the Camel Boy arrives as your Ally, he reminds you that asking for help will bring in the right people to ease the burden of your life.  Perhaps a wise person appears to give you advice.  Maybe you are moving and suddenly a couple of friends offer to give you a hand with your packing.  Or you want information about someone and you just happen to run into his former partner, who gives you the knowledge you need to make the decision you have been weighing.

No matter the issue, this is a sign that if you ask, you will receive what you need.  Synchronicity is engaged when you request assistance.  The Camel Boy never lets you down when you ask for help in lightening your load.  Now is the time to do so – and to except to get it.”

            I remember the first time we got this one, and I really liked how it was worded.  Seeing it again just makes me smile.  The imagery is so positive and delightfully whimsical, and yet the message is such a nice solid one.  Very exacting in what we need to know, and do.   Always welcome.

             We are pack animals, and live best, thrive even, when we have that family/clan/tribe interaction, the perfect amount of communication and contact.  For some of us, like me, this can be minimal.  Others need more.  But we all do require it.  Spending time with my babies this holiday was enormously replenishing, it just keeps me going and refills my heart.  I don’t need to touch them every single day, but I do need to know where they are.   When they are here all together and their dad is home, it’s just always good.

              Above you can see J.D. in his Yule Tide finery.  (Wow, this outfit was SO festive!)   And yes, that’s dinner.

             In our representation of the Winter Lights, we have small candles for our burning wishes and gratitude celebration.  Over the years we’ve utilized several types of holders.  Once we gathered everyone for a craft (at Karen‘s house) where we froze water in food cans then everyone pounded nails through the ice, punching holes in the metal, to create luminary designs along the sides.  

             This year I wanted to make sure we had enough votive cups, and also, ya know, that our chances of burning the house down were minimized, so we picked up some lovely, super simple, on-sale, clear glass containers.  What we didn’t have was a table to put them on.  As you saw, the tree was on one of them, and the one we used last year was really only on loan, it lives with Empress.  I was slightly concerned but figured we’d work it out.  

             One of the reasons I don’t worry as much as I used to is because I have the world’s most thoughtful witchlings.

             They wrapped this in a quilt that usually resides on the couch (for emergency cozy needs) and it was only slightly mysterious.  Seriously, they searched for miles before they came up with the most perfectly atrocious three-legged flat-topped piece of furniture.

               You can’t see the awesome swirl paint job on top because Dan (Officer Safety!) was all cautious and shit and put one of our baking stones on it, the better to not flame out my new holiday addition.  (Which will totally be an heirloom passed down for generations, I’m sure.  Also, that is Jade’s hand in there, Junior Officer Safety.)

             Some time next month, whenever my Beloved and I get around to dismantling the living room, I’ll attempt some more shots of this.   Wait until you see it in all of its tacky, colorful glory, it’s like it was MADE for me.

             Kinda like Pinkey.  (Who, I’ve decided, we will not refer to by gender.   I am making a statement with this radiant creature.   Ze is just Pinkey.  With the extra “e” because I just can NOT leave anything alone and potentially court normalcy.) 

               The Birth of Pinkey.  Also, I have no idea why I look bizarre in all of these pictures lately (unless it’s because I keep crying, in that case, whatever).  But after Dan got zir legs attached and wings battened down our marvelous Pinkey became much more flamingo-tastic.

             Still not real stable though, but he’s got some ideas.  (See what I mean about the weather?)  Be sure to take note of Emmy’s handiwork there on the fence.  She decorated with another one of her bargains, ball ornaments.  And look at this view below, she is not quite wearing that gift, but posing with it counts.  (It’s difficult to drape a Thermos.)

              Happy doesn’t even begin to cover how this all made me feel.  Truly, it was a most joyous occasion, for days on end.  There were even some unexpectedly entertaining moments as well.   Like when Hanny tried to squeeze in a few exercises and Max decided she maybe wasn’t safe on her own, so he hopped up to help.

 Today’s Deck:

Wisdom of the Hidden Realms Oracle Cards by Colette Baron-Reid

Bountiful Winter Blessings.

            Prepare yourselves for something so amazing that you might not even believe it.  I almost didn’t.  The overwhelmingly wonderful generosity of my children brought me to tears more than once last night.  I truly am the luckiest witch (and mother) ever.  

                          This will prove my point.  And then some.

             Yes, that’s me and Pinkey!  A gift from my son.  Today Dan did some front yard rearranging and now there is (PINK FLAMINGO!) light and loveliness for all to see.  We’ve decided that Pinkey will live indoors after the holidays, perhaps in the middle of the living room.   But we haven’t come to any conclusions yet.

             To further explain that picture, and a few of the following ones, in our family, it is traditional to put on every garment you receive.  Immediately.  No matter what else you are wearing.  In J.Adam‘s family they wrap everything in re-useable scarves and pieces of fabric.  So, that item on my head is a Brinson present-wrapper.

               Above, you can see J.D. demonstrating his new ornament (a golden glittery gun).  From Adam.  And wearing one of his new Solstice ties (this one is in the shape of a Yule Tide stocking).

             And here we have Hanny, modeling her gift from her brother, an exquisite chapeau.

             Empress is wearing several scarves and Max has on his new Snuggie (insert trademark sign here).

             This was taken at an odd angle because I was sitting on the floor (hugging Pinkey), but you can tell who it is.  Dan, wearing too many presents all at the same time.  (With a plaid dinner napkin around his neck; we were so enthralled with that uber green exchange idea that we cloaked a few of ours the same way, except ya know, we’re not classy and don’t have a plethora of neckerchiefs at our disposal.)

            A better view of Adam (as opposed to only half of him) and hopefully you can see both Hunter and Indi in their new apparel as well.  Of course the dogs got new clothes!

             Tomorrow I’ll show you some more photos of our celebration, but for now we need to move on to the message du jour.  It’s from our newest animal deck, in the Walkers Between The Worlds category, like Elephant from last Tuesday.

“Beaver  ~

Investing in home comforts provides security and family togetherness.

Glossy Beaver counsels conservation in all senses of the word, from protecting the earth’s resources for future generations to freeing yourself from large projects that sap your vigor and leave you vulnerable.  Beaver mates monogamously for life and keeps her offspring safe until the call of the wild bids them leave. 

Although our lives may be very different, the archetypal family unit still haunts our dreams.  Beaver’s lesson is that you turn longing into reality and transform love into a way of life.”

              Since this is our state animal we are pretty familiar with them around here.  Although, just the other night, my Beloved and I did learn a few a facts we hadn’t known before.  There was a program on PBS about home-builders in nature, and Beaver was featured prominently because of the tremendously functional and architecturally fabulous dens they create. 

             Any time we craft a cozy and welcoming home for our loved ones we are sending our own message.  We’re saying that THIS is a place to be comfortable in, THIS is where we are safe, THIS is our sanctuary.  As much as I detest The Burrow, for many reasons, it is our home right now.  And it feels like it fits us.  So I’ll make a point of being grateful for it.

Today’s Deck:

Animal Messages: Seek Inspiration From Our Animal Guides by Susie Green

LateNight Health Report:  I went to see the nurse practitioner on Wednesday, and she took some blood for a variety of tests.  No one called me from the office today, the results were due in by the end of business hours Thursday.  If anything had been amiss, she said they’d let me know.  I’ve heard nothing.  Apparently, I must be fine. 

           Without over-sharing (too much), the bottom line now is that my condition was sort of a Perfect Storm of Female Bad.  Menopause, pool closing/complete alteration in movement activity, turning 50, becoming a non-smoker, and basic metabolism changes due to hormones.  All in a VERY, albeit relatively speaking, short amount of time.  We have a new prescription and a new program now, so these steps should help.  I’ll keep you posted. 

              Today I took the bike out.  Fastest circuit yet.  And still, I’m coasting about half of it because of the hills.  I’m going to up the difficulty as soon as I can drop two more minutes off the total Route time.

 

On the 23rd of May.

          Twenty four years ago, on this very day, I gave birth to my first daughter, our second child.  I’ve been thinking about her, nearly non-stop since the clock hit midnight and the calendar flipped its page.  Although she lives nearly 300 miles to the north, she is on my mind every single day. 

           What can I say about my Number One Girl that I haven’t written here already?  Did you know that she performed a stand-up routine in her elementary school’s talent show when she was in about the second grade?  Most of you know that the interwebs are a veritable mine field of her brilliant and insightful words.  For years the radio waves were peppered with her production and programming expertise.  She has traveled to places that I can only dream of seeing.

            We named her for my father, but when the two of us are in the same room together, both he, and her own dad, can’t keep up with the speed of our ongoing conversations.  When she and I are in one place we talk so fast, and generally at the same time, only the two of us know what’s being said.  She has a framed verse that says “Mirror, Mirror, on the wall, I am my mother after all.”  It is one of her least favorite features, but the resemblance is undeniable, even to her at times.

           She has been independent and out-spoken practically since the moment she arrived.  Early.  Her due date was not for another handful of days, but she was in such a hurry to get here, and make her mark on the world, that she threw my body in to a condition that is known as “failure to progress.”  Even her own birth couldn’t hold her back.  Her rushed appearance brought family members in from vacations and excursions and day trips, for miles around.  She showed up to crash the Memorial Day Weekend – making the national holiday an occaision All About Hanna.  Still certainly memorable, but not the way any of us expected.

          If you have all read the details under the Pentacle People tab, or have been following along here in JulieLand for a while now, you know the reason I call her my Hurricane.  She is frenetic and seems to have more energy than a deadly storm system.  We had a dog one time that couldn’t actually SEE her, she was a bouncing, zooming mass of voice and curly blonde hair.  As a child she would explode out of her bed in the mornings, attacking the day.

           She talked before she had words, and when she played, her characters all had foreign accents, with detailed backstories and complicated lives of drama.   Everything about her had a deep worldly quality, because she brought history and literature to life.  She’s current and newsy and fashionable.  She is artistic and creative and well spoken.  She is beautiful and smart and knowledgable.

       She’s my Hanny Baby, and I am more proud of her than I can ever say.

(Excuse me while I cry for a bit okay?  Here, go read her stuff while I compose my wee self elf.  Seattlest, Nano story, my favorite font, about beets, the dog blog, and this silly one too.  These are the posts I wrote about her before: 2008, 2009, 2010.)

           Our card today is from Doreen’s archangel deck, I am not doing a Special Occasions draw until my girl comes home… which will be this weekend.  Then we will have something to celebrate.  (I sent her gift up with her brother, because I forgot to put it in her sister’s car.  Fortunately the witchlings got many fine qualities from their father, one of them being brains.)

“Clairaudience  ~

Archangel Zadkiel:  Notice the loving guidance you hear inside your mind, or from other people.

You are hearing true Divine guidance very clearly.  It comes in the form of repetitious messages, urging you to improve a situation for yourself and others.  Pay close attention to everything you hear in your mind and with your physical ears.  Divine directives are repetitious, loving, and to the point.  Ask me for help if you need clarification on anything you hear.”

         Today is also Sierra’s birthday, so I would like to take this opportunity to wish her festive happiness, joy, and blessings as well.

Transforming, Growing, Changing.

        I got on line early today because we had to deal with some local issues.  Nothing big or even things I cared that much about, but it kind of threw my “creature of habit” aspect right off, in a sort of unbalanced way.  When a day goes sideways, it’s uncomfortable for me.  I’ve grown so much in what I can learn and what I can now do, as opposed to what I used to be able to accomplish.  But days like this remind me that this whole Learning our Lessons process is still a process.  And it takes as long as it takes.

       Megan was talking about time this week, and how we view it.  It’s very different when we are children, and the summer feels endless.  As we age, it seems to speed up.  We are flinging along so quickly that we have to consciously stop, and make moments, so that we don’t miss anything.  As we watch a younger generation make advances we are proud, and yet sometimes we feel left behind.  I do not believe in living a life of regrets.  And as I’ve said here tons, there is no such thing as a mistake.  There are only lessons and opportunities to learn.  We can just do better the next time, then (hopefully) not have to learn that damn lesson again.

         In my own case, I have watched the infants I gave birth to transform themselves into phenomenally fabulous adults.  My son, who I just heard on the police radio, is doing exactly what he set out to do.  He is mere weeks from being an officer like his father.  His generosity is boundless, and it is an honour for me to see my first born wear that badge and gun.  My last baby, our Empathic and gorgeous Empress, has a delightful new home, the extremely photogenic Max, and a fulfilling job (which could potentially turn in to a fulfilling career).  Then there is our Hurricane.  Who made me nearly weep with adoration last night and today.

          She has been helping me learn all of this business and blog nonsense from the start.  (Her patience with me is probably a lesson that, at this point, has driven her to increase her alcoholic consumption to frightening levels, poor thing.)  But in her own process of growing, she has shown a brilliant insight into how the world functions, or should function, when it is not performing to our exacting standards (and believe me, I raised all three of them to have some pretty freaking high standards).  Her most recent blog post just about makes cry with the beauty of it.  (And I personally think it needs much more exposure than it is getting, not just speaking as her mother here, but because it’s so truly well done.)

         We all know though, that as we learn and grow, there are still limitations to our progress.  I have worked on many of my deficiencies, sharing them here, and making changes in a more private way.  I have done some good work, but there is still much I need to change, ways I need to grow.  Some things I can never alter, or even contemplate transforming.  Conquering the kitchen is never going to happen, with this body, this brain, in this lifetime for me.  But then, I also don’t want to transform my wee self elf into a master chef.  I get fed.  I am not starving (obviously).  Daniel likes creating edible items.  It works for us.

              This is what he made today.  I saw a recipe in the paper.              It is a flour-less chocolate cake, baked in a deep dish pie plate.  Personally, I think it needs some frosting, but that wasn’t  the presentation recommended (they just called for that powered sugar, so he sprinkled it, as you can see).  I’ll let you know how it turned out.  (And if I added frosting.)

          Our card today is from The Celtic Shaman’s Pack and it falls under the category of The Empowerers.  This group is defined as “beings who support the shaman on his/her journeys into the inner realms… each of these, in a different fashion, acts as guide and counsellor to the ways between the worlds.”  I think as we move along, on our paths, learning our lessons, the best way to go confidently forward is to listen to guides like this.  Pay attention to the helpers we have here with us in life, as well as whatever guidance the Universe sends to accompany us.  I feel blessed that three of the people who are there for me, are people I helped to create, and the other one, well … he bakes me cakes when I ask him to.

“The Woman Made of Flowers  (Blodeuwedd)  ~  Transformation.

 The Woman Made of Flowers not only possesses the ability to change her form but has a deep awareness of the natural forces which exist in all the worlds.  From her flower nature she derives empowerment from the world of growing things; in her female form she shares the lot of human passions and desires; as bird (owl) she rides the passageways of the air and reads the secrets of the night.  She can also open the way to our true nature and encourages us to follow our heart’s desire.

Journey:  enter the wood between the worlds and walk there. It is night and a full moon rides high above the trees, casting a cold light through the branches.  As you walk, become aware of an owl floating silently above you.  It lands on a branch and perches there, regarding you with its glowing eyes.  In the depths of those eyes you may catch a glimpse of another face, lovely beyond mortal beauty.  Ask your question or request guidance to a place where you may share in the nature of the flowering world.”

Subversive cross stitching update:  I am about halfway done with Emmy’s first sampler.  It is looking quite nice, I’ll have a picture for you tomorrow.  But there is a Secret Project in the works…more on that later.

The Business update:  I tried to work on the Links tab, but my Special learing disabilities delayed me, Hanny helped out and we have made some progress there, but it’s slow.  PayPal is also percolating (thanks Jen) as are the new card designs (thanks Stormy), not to mention the research that’s being done (thanks Cat).  We’re gettin’ there!

One Last Thing:  over at the Lego A Day site he’s having a vote (using a real poll, not the way I did mine, he’s fancy like that).  Go look at it, if you have not already been checking in there, he’s very clever and talented.

After the Festivities…

       Oh it was a long one at the mall today let me tell you.  But I was in a jolly mood, so nothing was too annoying.  Here is the main reason.               This was how my evening went last night, and the feeling carried me through all of those seemingly endless hours today.  Dan is taking the photo and my kids are laughing.  (Sorry about the eyeball flash issue with the dog, you know how bad we are at this.)  It was a wonderfully fun and ridiculous time.  Our Solstice celebration went quite well (we did NOT burn the house down).  Hanna probably has some better pictures she can share later.  All five of us, present and accounted for.  My babies chose the most thoughtful and amazing gifts.  Here is just one example.  

     J.D. gave me these shoes.  We made them personalized, and I truly forgot that we had ordered them until the box was unwrapped. 

 

             I wore them proudly all day, and my feet were so happy.  

                   Why yes, that IS my website on the side.  For some reason (which I cannot now recall because I am beyond tired) we couldn’t make the dot work in dot com, so just I sewed a gold bead on them.  (In the next few days I will share some more of my treasures, Emmy gave me some fabric, so I am going to attempt another quilt cover.)

            It will be another long one tomorrow, but then… ha ha, I get a day off.  Even if we don’t recognize the holiday, everything is closed.  Okay, not exactly everything.  Traditionally Daniel has worked (so people who DO celebrate this can be home with their families), while the kids and I drive around looking at decorations.  We then stop at a 7-11 store and have a mini-feast.  Some years we have also snacked at Denney’s.  Those employees have to be there anyway, so we cheer them up by visiting.

            Our card today is brief but important.  We are back to Sylvia’s wee deck.  It’s funny that this one came up right now, and we are reminiscing about childhood traditions.  One of the things my children were not allowed to say (and neither was I, nor were either of my parents in their childhood homes) was “I’m bored.”  We called it the “b” word, and it was forbidden to ever speak outloud.

“Relieving Boredom  ~

  My grandmother used to say that if you are bored you are stupid.  While that may seem a little harsh and abrupt, it has stuck with me.  If I ever feel slightly bored, I do something, for there is always something interesting or educational to do, see, or explore in this world.  Keep in mind that boredom can also cause depression, so get out there and live!”

                 I don’t know if any of you watch Mad Men, but in one of the early seasons Don Draper’s wife (Betty!) says to their kids when they complain about being bored, “boring people are bored, go read a book.”