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             This post may seem simplistic and not too break-through-like to some folks, but to me, it’s another one of those massive steps towards positive mental health.  I’m reading the Intuitive Eating book, and seeking assistance from a qualified professional (well, two, but that’s not my point).  One of the reasons for all of it is that I’ve been lied to and brainwashed by my culture, my country.

             In that decades-long process, I lost the ability to nourish my body in a healthy and instinctive way.  Honestly?  I never realized how bad it was.  Until my sister was in hospice care, and we both thought she looked good.  Thin.  She was so damn thin.  Because she was actively DYING!

              Now that I’m examining, living this process, experiencing the damage and the healing, I’m sad and I’m thrilled.  I get angry, then I feel empowered.  It varies, depending on the day.

            Here’s what I learned.  We never need to be starving, or deprived.  Not in a country that is BEYOND rich with food.   Is it all nutritious food?  No, it is not.  Unfortunately, that’s not the ONLY unhealthy aspect of our society.

             When we are born, we eat as a result of feeling/being hungry.  We stop when we are full.  Basic?  Absolutely!  This becomes lost in some people (and here, I’m only talking about me now).   Those folks (me!) have to find the tools needed to re-learn this skill.  I’ve begun that.  I’ve made headway over the past year.  My weight no longer counts as my value.

              (It doesn’t count on most days, some days, it’s a complete relapse, crumple-in-a-heap-to-the-bottom sort of situation.)

             Here is what the authors say about their concept, and this is the shift in focus that I’ve been working towards:

“While Intuitive Eating includes principles of mindful eating, it also encompasses a broader philosophy, addressing the issues of cognitive distortions and emotional eating.  It includes seeing satisfaction as a focal point in eating, physical activity/movement for the sake of feeling good, rejecting dieting mentality, using nutrition information without judgement, and respecting your body, regardless of how you feel about its shape.”

             The gigantic steps that I am taking in this direction is for my highest good.  As are all things that I strive to incorporate into my life.  Previously, that was not the case.   As I’ve struggled with the topic of food and body-image and self-worth I have seen the improvements, but I also still get caught off-guard by the crashing falls.

             We all have our lessons, we all have our gifts.  While I am confident in a spiritual sense, absolute in my working crafts, my own “me” issues continue to be a project that I must deal with every day.

             This afternoon, before I even got up, the channeled message was making itself known, it actually arrived as a visitation in my dreams.  Do I question this?  Not a fucking chance.  I KNOW that this is my truth, my gift, my journey in this lifetime.  As much a part of me as my challenges and problems are.

             Here’s what we need to know today:

our lives may go in immeasurable directions,

embrace and appreciate the path that we are on.

             In my case, it’s all about the inner vs outer.  I could have made other choices, turned a different way, heading in another direction.  I am here, instead.  My challenges are the ones I need to face now.  My talents are the ones I need to share now.

             On our card altar, the message here is like an exuberant companion piece for us to reach for.

“Set Your Sights Higher  ~

Increase your standards, and expect more for yourself.  

Don’t settle!

This card indicates that you have been trying to rationalize that some situation is okay . . . . when it isn’t.  You’ve settled for less than you desire, and for much less than you deserve.  You don’t need to compromise!  Heaven will help you heal, or will replace troubling situations in your life.  All  you need to do is ask for help, and then adhere to the guidance that results.

Take time today to visualize and dream about your true heart’s desires. Don’t worry about being disappointed – you deserve a great life, and you have the power and the Divine help to accomplish it.  Fear and worries slow down your manifestation, so keep releasing all cares and doubts.

You may feel intimidated by moving up to a higher plateau in  your journey; however, you have this reassurance that you are ready.  Reach for the stars, know that you are qualified and deserving of these gifts, and open your arms to receive them!”

             This one doesn’t come with a defined affirmation  so I made one that I thought we could use.

I deserve to be healthy and safe and happy and richly fulfilled in all aspects of my life.  I never need to compromise, because what I desire I am able to manifest.  For the highest good of all.

Today’s Deck:

Magical Mermaids And Dolphin Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

Today’s Mileage:

 was just downtown and back, with only one minor detour to drop off some paperwork, 8.672 total miles, in 49 minutes 2 seconds, at a rate of 10.5 MPH average speed.  In the rain for about half of it.

Today’s Sharing:

is this view of how my canisters look, as of last night.

Flour, brown sugar, and coffee.

            That very old one on the far right was purchased in an antique store more than 20 years ago (for less than a 10 dollar bill).  Now you can see why I was so excited to find the new ones.   Also?  Looks like we need to make more brown sugar.