I had a big Transformative idea hit me in the head today. So I’ve text chatted with my offspring about it, after I discussed the thoughts with their father, obviously. One of the facets of my time with *A* is our discussions of Release. It seems that I’ve been holding on to who I think I am , as opposed to who I really am.
For many, MANY years my identity had a lot to do with my hair and my clothes. (And sure, my tattoos, too.) When my sister was dying, for our last birthday together, I gave her all of that hair. It was heartbreakingly sad for all of us. She would be gone in days after that gesture but the reminder would be staring back at me in the mirror for years. It was a major adjustment for my babies as well. These were young adults who did not remember their mother before she had those yards of messy long locks.
My car was also a part of my identity, apparently. And with very little effort (if you can call all of this biking I’ve done LITTLE) I have let much of my attachment to the Wee Walnut go. It will be heading out to my mom and dad’s place soon, and I won’t see it again until next summer. But I’m really fine with that. This afternoon it occurred to me that I’d probably also be fine without my growing-back hair.
That braid has simply gotten in my way one too many times this past week. And, it’s mostly always wet. I love the No Shampoo simplicity, and now I think I’d like that with the length of my hair as well. I’ll keep you posted, as this developes.
We were out the door and on the road pretty early* (for us) because Dan needed to be back in time to dress for work. I am starting to understand what 50% Chance Of Rain looks like now. And how to prepare for it, garment-wise. (All I need to remember, additionally, is to look at the temperature gauge.)
*Well before THREE o’clock!
This is what that forecast means around here. Half the time it’s so freaking bright you can’t open your eyes all the way, and the rest of the time, it’s pouring. Being out in it has changed how I feel about our weather. Not that it bothered me all that much, ever. In fact, we’ve recently been talking about how these cloudbursts are totally a price we are VERY willing to pay, in order to live in such a gorgeously lush place.
Wanna hear how my emotional baking turned out? Of course you do. The wee darlings had to be eaten with a spoon. But NOT because they were under-cooked, this time. Merely because I was slightly too excited to make them healthy, and added perhaps a TEENSY bit more “extras” than the base ingredients could withstand. Some went into the lunch bag, and I just got this, from Mayberry,
“I don’t care what you say, I like the crumbly muffins.”
They were completely edible, as evidenced by the fact that I ate an entire BOWL of them (see, they have NO integrity, and clearly, neither do I) last night and again earlier this evening. On the plus side, I didn’t burn the house down!
And speaking of blessings, look what Corina sent us. A view from her Special Day.
She included the following note with her phone photo,
“…the whole pic is washed out, but that little tree is white in reality, too! (Except the brown parts, which are dead ) ….only 50 of these on earth. Wow I am overwhelmed by the gift of being able to see this unique creation!“
Later I found THIS when I went searching, look familiar? (Ignore whatever all those words are on that site, I did. We just need to picture.) Also, HERE is a video, with words I actually paid attention to. (It’s six minutes, in case you were wondering.)
On our card altar we received something so very timely, and supremely uplifting, that I nearly cried. I SO needed this. What was really cool was that, just minutes before I flipped it over, I had checked my e-mail, and been given another sign. In the form of a letter telling me that one of you lovely JulieLanders had recognized and accepted her Miracle. Feedback like this, after readings I’ve done, makes me enormously happy!
“Angel Of Self-Worth ~
You are currently undervaluing yourself
It is time to regain your self-worth
You are so much more than what you are portraying to the world and those around you.
The Angel of Self-Worth is here today to reflect unto you all of the beauty, love, and light that you are, and to help you regain your sense of self-worth. Feel her healing light penetrate your aura this very moment and affirm to yourself:
I am a being of light and love. I love and value the many wonderful qualities I possess. From this moment forward, I will honour and value myself, all I am, and all I do, in the knowledge that I am part of God’s creation. I am worthy of love.
Repeat this affirmation several times each day either out loud or in the silence of your heart. Reflect upon each word and truly believe and own each one. Express each word with all your heart and soul. As you begin to value yourself, you will find that others also start to value you.”
Awesome, right? How about if we give this one just a small adjustment though, okay? Change that second-to-last line, if you feel the need, to read as:
…. in the knowledge that I am part of All Creation. I am worthy of love.”
Angels, Gods, and Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno