This is going to be long and complicated, so try to stay with me. Hopefully I can relate it all and it will make some semblance of sense. If it’s confusing, don’t worry, totally me, not you.
As you well know, in my belief system, everything is a lesson. We are here to do our schoolwork so we can get back Home, ideally with good grades. One of the ways we learn is by examining our past lives. And one of the ways our past lives come up is through physical experiences. Like injuries. (See where I’m going with this now?)
My back mishap was a signal, the pain is here to tell me something. At first I had no clue what that was, I was just fucking miserable by the time Dan came home for lunch last night. I’d taken all the OTC meds I could scrounge up, and done the topical treatments, too. Next was the heating pad. After he left I received the message (via Henry) that this was past life related. Well duh, Jul.
At about that same moment, in the synchronistic way of all things, Corina shared something that showed up on her metaphorical doorstep. It was a recipe for:
1 cup of fresh squeezed lemon juice
(4 -6 lemons)
4-6 cups of purified water
1 tsp of ground turmeric
1 tsp of cinnamonPinch of Himalayan Salt
Optional: Honey (or to taste)
Optional: 1 tsp ground/fresh ginger
As most of you are aware, Empress and her business partner have a small gym and personal training facility downtown, where Dan and J.D. and I all partake of fitness focused events. Well, yesterday Ryon and I were discussing the fact that I simply stop pushing when I become uncomfortable. There is no way I’m ever going to gain the results I want (or ANY results, that’s been made abundantly clear these past 13 months) if I continue to react in this manner. The thing is, I hate pain.
Enter my newest lesson. The reason I had to twist my spine and be shoved out of my comfort zone, literally, was so I could FEEL the difference. Driving my body into this transformative state is not going to happen if I don’t do the work, or I step off and stop short of real accomplishments. Discernment is what I’m aiming for. I have to experience LEVELS of suffering. And know what to do with all of them, how to handle and manipulate the sensations.
The person I was in the life that relates to this situation was, as they all are, fascinating. But also, I have learned, just a person. Not a famous name, nor history-making titled individual. I like that every body I have worn is meaningful, and worthwhile. This guy was a shaman-type of man, a wise healer who knew his people, and his capacity for helping them, in amazing depth.
When he experienced this incident, an injury similar to mine now, he pressed himself into the dirt. Becoming flat and One with the terrain. He focused on the power of Mother Earth and then switched his awareness to the air and sky above, absorbing that energy as well. In becoming One with the Elements, the Universe, the All, and yet staying his own person, he was able to harness all of that potency and draw the healing inside to rest it upon his pain.
The minute I became aware of him doing this, I knew it was possible for me to repeat his actions, now for my own current situation, and also later, when I’m approaching that wall of resistance in my exercising. Instead of seeing the “push through the pain” moment as negative, I need to view it as a blessing. A gift of my own strength, my own health, my own Transformation.
When I got up today, I wasn’t able to take my bike erranding as I had planned (for many reasons (only one of which was the pulled muscle). My over all range of motion and ease of movement were most definitely improved though. Still a bit stiff, but not nearly as horrible feeling as I had been. I’ll continue to rest and heal, and check in with my former Shamanic Self. Our daily draw message says that this is exactly the right way to go.
“Break Free ~
Try different ventures and experiences as a way to grow and learn.
Sometimes we get into ruts and routines because they feel safe and comfortable By drawing this card you are asked to swim outside your comfort zone. It’s time to take risks and explore new ways of thinking, making a living, or being in a relationship.
When you make the commitment to explore and experiment, the world responds by giving you wonderful new experiences. Heaven isn’t necessarily asking you to settle into these new avenues, but to instead test the water and venture out.
Sometimes we will experiment and learn new things, and then when we return to our comfortable old routines, we are changed (for the better). This is definitely a time for you to reach out and enjoy new options. Try something new today.”
Magical Mermaid and Dolphin Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue
LateNight Time Management Announcement:
there are now three library books I HAVE to read right away, including my assignment reading that *A* suggested. I need to step away from the blogs and tweeties for a few days and just get caught up. If I’m absent over at your place, forgive me, I’ll be back soon.
But there will be no change here, every night at 10:55 the new post will still show up. I just have to read paper pages for a bit, and not so many electronic screen ones.
no clue why formatting decided to go sideways tonight. I have fiddled with it all I can, doing all that I know how, but it just wants to stay all funky, so we’re letting it.