Some more quick words on the topic of Christopher Moore, then we move along with the rest of what needs to be covered. He says HERE which books are best read in what order. And yes, along with Marian Keyes, Tom Robbins, and Carl Hiaasen, he is one of my all time favorite authours. (You already know that I’m also a huge fan of Barbara Samuel O’Neal and Sarah Addison Allen.)
Today I spotted these (hope you can see both) as I was heading off on the bike.
Signs,
with a message.
This errand was simply to pick up some apples and more salad greens. My girls went to the service and I had to be outside on my own. Ended up having a conversation with someone who went to school with them. He seemed in need of connecting with me. I know that it all went the way it was supposed to go. As I pedaled home it occurred to me (or I was reminded!) that it was Karen who handed me Moore’s first book, many many years ago.
She is missed. Already. And continuously. Missed in a severely debilitating way. There is a huge painful hole where she used to be.
What has gotten me through my day, and through the past two weeks (in addition to the support of my kids and their father), is the knowledge that she’s not actually gone at all. I KNOW this. It’s just enormously difficult to keep processing it, time after time, hour after hour, minute after minute. The more days going by, the less stabby it will feel though. This I also know.
Today’s message from the Universe was, again, massively comforting. And validating.
“The Horse King ~ 42 ~ assistance, control
The Horse King always comes to lend you the power to go the distance, forging ahead whatever the weather. You will most certainly reach your perfect destination with this noble Ally. He lets you know that some person or circumstance brought through synchronicity will certainly appear to help you with your endeavors. You aren’t meant to go this part of the journey alone.
This is also an important time to delegate authority to others so that they may assist you. Currently you are magnetic to powerful people who are in a position to help make your dreams come true. The Horse King asks that you remain open to those who are sent to aid you. You can be assured that you will be lifted up and will ride high in victory.”
This was direct when I flipped it, but now there seems to a need for both definitions to be shared.
“Challenger
The Horse King wants to know why you think you can do everything by yourself. Keeping control of everything around you is counterproductive and exhausting. You may lose an important opportunity if you insist on being stubborn.
The Horse King is patient, however, and will wait for you to come to your senses and accept the help you need. You won’t be able to reach your goal otherwise.
Yet the Horse King says that all it takes is a decision to jump on his back, ask for help, and graciously allow yourself to be carried to your destination. Let go of control and amazing things can happen to you.”
Today’s Deck:
Wisdom Of The Hidden Realms Oracle Cards by Colette Baron-Reid
Today’s Affirmation, from Louise Hay and Cheryl Richardson:
“Using The Bathroom“
(I chose this one because it is not only useful, but funny, and we needed that.)
“I easily release all that my body no longer needs.
Intake, assimilation, and elimination are all in Divine right order.”
Today’s Daily Dog is just a homey shot of Max, loungin’ in the living room.
Photo by his girl.
(I think, or possibly,
by the other girl.)
Nope, neither girl – you’ll never know who the mystery photographer is… HAHAHAHAHAHA
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I think we kind of all figured out the mystery, Daniel.
I’m out of sync again. You know, when I’m in sync with my writing it doesn’t matter if I’m out of sync with everything else. Got to work on that.
I know it was a hard day for you. Four of my friends have lost one or more people who were important to them in the last month. July / August seems a weird month for that. Some very righteous people leaving the planet right now. This place will not be the same.
Max looks comforting today and yesterday.
Marian has the last of the Walsh sister books coming out in September. The Mystery of Mercy Close. Can’t wait!
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Our Maid Marian also has a Mama Walsh
e-fucking-book that I can’t have!
I’ll get over it though, I still love her.
J
9:12 p.m.
8-12-12
Mammy Walsh’s A-Z of the Walsh Family – I looked it up. Apparently it is supposed to be released for kindle on 8/27/12 and available for preorder now. It’s not available for preorder.
Did you know that you can install a kindle app on your pc for free and then buy / download free kindle books and read them on your computer?
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I did NOT know that. And until just recently I really couldn’t read on the computer very well (old machine and not portable) but NOW….. hey, that might be a possibility!
J
10:37 p.m.
8-13-12
Grief to me feels like a big jagged rock just fell into the river of my life. The water needs to find a way around and it hurts like hell when you bump into it. Over time the water wears down the jagged edges of the rock so it isn’t so rough and smoothes it down, although it never really goes away. And every once in a while you stub your toe on it and it hurts all over again. I wish there was some way to make this less painful for you, but there is no going around grief, there is only going through it.
Hugs!
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Thank you. I hope you don’t mind but I’m using this in tonight’s post. It was SO damn perfect.
J
9:17 p.m.
8-12-12
No way out but through. Story of my life.
‘The Horse King wants to know why you think you can do everything by yourself.’
I think the chalenger was for me. But I’ve realeased that notion. Put it out here to you fine people and feel the better for it.
Julie – peace. All will be well. It just takes time. Loves.
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One of the things that helps me get through it is knowing that I’m never doing this alone. Thank you, we ARE well, aren’t we?
J
9:19 p.m.
8-12-12
Yes, Julie, peace and love to you that the grief will ease and not last too long. We are all here for you.
I can use the Horse King. Come on and help me, please!
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I like how that Horse King arrived exactly when we needed him.
J
9:23 p.m.
8-12-12
Julie, great card, once again. Sheesh, the Universe must know something, huh? 2011 was my year for grief; I can empathize with you and what you’re going through right now. All I can share is something I heard somewhere (now THAT narrows it down a lot) that was ‘without love, there is no grief’. Anyone who loves, and loves deeply, will have grief.
I have finished my trifecta of concerts with three bands in three days in three cities, and am looking forward to a calmer week or two. I think I’ll get in touch with Sloth…
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It was like a world tour of tuba!
J
9:31 p.m.
8-12-12
Big hugs for you, Julie. I’m so sorry you’re hurting. I agree with Karen’s comments above and that somehow over time you will make peace with this loss.
Love the Horse King.
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True, time is the most helpful element we have during episodes like this. And making it past that next second, minute, hour is the way to get through into the next day.
J
9:36 p.m.
8-12-12
I’m sorry for your loss. Truly. May light perpetual shine upon her.
Terry Pratchett’s young adult series (featuring Tiffany Aching) has a deep message about what the horse carved into the chalk cliff means … I cannot recommend those books enough.
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YA is not my favorite, but so much of this work has been recommended to me lately that I’m just gonna have to go get some of those books.
Thanks. For everything.
J
9:39 p.m.
8-12-12
I am willing to accept the fact I need help. I just don’t know where to look for it. A series of recent events has cracked my shell open, and then I ran out of the medication that keeps the edge off. I am shattering – which only means I’m feeling the normal feelings that everyone has. The problem with that is I can’t function in my life and deal with the feelings too. So, universe, if you have someone in mind who can help you’d better make that crystal clear.
I’m sorry that you’re hurting, Julie. She wouldn’t want you to be hurting though. I think she is as sad for you as you are for her. love and peace. I’m glad you have Dan and the girls.
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No, she wouldn’t want ANY of us to be sad.
I want to be someone who can help you! Reach out to any one of us, Kewl Kate, we’re here.
J
9:44 p.m.
8-12-12
Love that doggy.
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He’s kinda made of love.
J
9:47 p.m.
8-12-12
Jumping on Karen’s coattails. She said it very well. {{{HUGS}}} from us to you.
Max is adorable, as usual.
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I left a note on an old envelope in the kitchen with my camera on top, hoping that someone would get the hint. And it was Dan! (We owe him much thanks for that stealth shot.)
J
9:51 p.m.
8-12-12
Well said, Karen. Sending love to you every day as the process of pain and grief becomes less jagged.
I just read How To Bake a Perfect Life by Barbara O’Neal. Loved it. A new favourite author to read and a back list to discover.
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Barbara’s books are near perfect.
(If she left out the recipes,
they WOULD be perfect.)
J
9:57 p.m.
8-12-12
Many, many, many hugs.
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Thank you.
Very much.
J
9:59 p.m.
8-12-12
((((HUGS))))
The Horse King has a lovely and very timely message. It is beautiful that you were there to connect with that boy, and perhaps you were the one who fulfilled “You aren’t meant to go this part of the journey alone” for him.
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I totally felt that as well !!!
J
10:41 p.m.
8-13-12