We’re beginning with our cards today, so we* can get the feel of where this post is going. My focus is being challenged because Dan and I have had the most ridiculous pseudo-arguments all day long. We walked earlier (pictures below) and then we went to the pool. Our class was put on thunder delay, and that always messes with my concentration. Fortunately there was only one, so we missed just fifteen minutes out of the hour. But now, as I sit here with wet hair, it feels as though I’m entirely off-center.
*And by “we” I obviously mean just me. Because as much as we love our chatty comment section, it really only is ME writing this part. (Mostly, there is that whole “I’m the radio” factor going on every day here. But I still have to do the typing!)
Often it helps to look at our message, to see which direction I need to go, or aim.
“The Dream ~ 6 ~ Water: Emotions
Some enchanted evening you are going to meet your soulmate, the perfect person who will meet all your needs and fulfill all your dreams. Right? Wrong. This fantasy that songwriters and poets are so fond of perpetuating has its roots in memories of the womb, where we were so secure and ‘at one’ with our mothers; it’s no wonder we have hankered to return to that place all our lives. But, to put it quite brutally, it is a childish dream. And it’s amazing we hang on to it so stubbornly in the face of reality.
Nobody, whether it is your current mate or some dreamed-of partner in the future, has any obligation to deliver our happiness on a platter – nor could they even if they wanted to. Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.
Suppression (r) ~ 10 ~ Fire: action
The figure on this card is quite literally ‘all tied up in knots.’ His light still shines within, but he has repressed his own vitality trying to meet so many demands and expectations. He has given up all his own power and vision in return for being accepted by the very same forces that have imprisoned him. The danger of suppressing one’s natural energy in this way is apparent in the cracks of a volcanic eruption about to take place around the edge of the image.
The real message of the card is to find a healing outlet for this potential explosion. It is essential to find a way to release whatever tensions and stresses might be building up inside you right now. Beat on a pillow, jump up and down, go out into the wilderness and scream at the empty sky – anything to shake up your energy and allow it to circulate freely. Don’t wait for a catastrophe to happen.
Understanding (r) ~ Page Of Water ~ Mastery of Emotions
The bird pictured on this card is looking out from what seems to be a cage. There is no door, and actually the bars are disappearing. The bars were an illusion, and this small bird is being summoned by the grace and freedom and encouragement of the others. It is spreading its wings, ready to take flight for the very first time.
The dawn of a new understanding – that the cage has always been open, and the sky has always been there for us to explore - can make us feel a little shaky at first. It’s fine, and natural to be shaky, but don’t let it overshadow the opportunity to experience the lightheartedness and adventure on offer, right there alongside the shakiness. Move with the sweetness and gentleness of this time. Feel the fluttering within. Spread your wings and be free.”
Whenever we get those contrary cards I wait to see why. And this time, it was nicely validating. What these mean is that we are learning, we are evolving, understanding what’s being said in our messages and manifesting it into doing a better job as we go along.
No longer are we bound and hunched over like that Suppression guy, we can see our way out now. No longer are we fooled by the real-life knowledge of Soulmate fiction, we know that to love others we must love ourselves first. And finally, we are able to see the freedom we’ve always had, and appreciate it.
Yesterday, with all the animal gorgeousness and fun, I forgot to share this picture. Today, as we walked through the gate, Dan grabbed his phone and took the same shot.
Nice. We both saw it, and we both wanted to share it. Oh, and before I forget, today there won’t be a Daily Dog to share. Grand Dog has had a relapse on the anxiety accidents. I didn’t want to contribute to that and chase him around trying to get a decent shot of “Max Sitting In That Same Chair Again” so I just left him alone. If you need to see cute, look at any other day in the past month, there’s plenty of Maximum Adorability to be found, just not on this particular post.
We wandered the neighborhood this afternoon, not long after we got up. The rain is still a factor, with the added bonus of humidity (not something we generally have to deal with). We’re having trouble figuring out how to dress. I keep wearing shorts, then layering on garments above the waist (the better to strip them off later).
Everything we walked past was water-logged and droopy. Sure, we are USED to precipitation, just not CONTINUOUSLY in the supposed summer like this, with so few breaks to dry out in between.
Tomorrow we have to go in search of some new swim-wear for my Beloved. And visit the internet/cable folks AGAIN. (No, it is NOT fucking fixed, thankyouverymuch.) Plus gather food items for our next journey away. Should be festive!
Osho Zen Tarot