Monthly Archives: May 2012

Spiritually Industrious, Physically Challenged.

             We are going to begin today with two things from yesterday’s comments section.  The first is a link Karen B shared with us; the story she remembered about the wolves inside, like the Dueling Dragons.  Don’t know anything about the site, but go here and see the retelling of this one.  Yep, it’s the same concept.  Thanks Betty Bear!

             Relating to this, Judie mentioned making herself a reminder that said “Feed the right dragon.”  What a really cool idea.  Like visible affirmations on Post It Notes or messages of positive thinking taped to a mirror, having our brain nudged to get back on the desired track is sometimes all it takes to turn a bad situation around.  Thanks for this clever way of reinforcing our self-improvement projects, JQ!

            On our card altar we’ve come around to that triple dose which some of you don’t adore.  Stay with me though, this one is totally worthwhile.

“Past Lives  ~  XVIII  ~  Major Arcana

The hands of existence form the shape of the female genitals, the opening of the cosmic mother.  Revealed within are many images, faces from other times.  While it might be entertaining to fantasize about famous past lives, it is just a distraction.  The real point is to see and understand the karmic patterns in our lives, and their roots in an endless repetitive pattern that traps us in unconscious  behavior.

The two rainbow lizards on either side represent knowing and not-knowing.  They are the guardians of the unconscious, making sure that we are prepared for a vision that might otherwise be shattering.  A glimpse into the eternity of our existence is a gift, and understanding the function of karma in our lives is not something that can be grasped at will.  This is a wake-up call; the events in your life are trying to show you a pattern as ancient as the journey of your own soul.

Participation  ~  4  ~  Fire: Action

Have you ever seen the night going?  Very few people even become aware of things which are happening every day …. In such a beautiful world we are living in small ponds of our own misery ….

Each figure in this mandala holds the right hand up, in an attitude of receiving, and the left hand down, in an attitude of giving.  The whole circle creates a tremendous energy field that takes on the shape of the double dorje, the Tibetan symbol for the thunderbolt …

You have an opportunity to participate with others now to make your contributions to creating something greater and more beautiful than each of you could manage alone.  Your participation will not only nourish you, but will also contribute something precious to the whole.

Intensity  ~  Knight of Fire  ~  Mastery of Action

The figure in this card has taken on the shape of an arrow, moving with the single-pointed focus of one who knows precisely where he is going.  He is moving so fast that he has become almost pure energy.  But his intensity should not be mistaken for the manic energy that makes people drive their car at top speed to get from Point A to Point B.   That kind of intensity belongs to the horizontal world of space and time.  The intensity represented by the Knight of Fire belongs to the vertical world of the present moment – a recognition that now is the only moment there is, and here is the only space.

When you act with the intensity of the Knight of Fire it is likely to create ripples in the waters around you.  Some will feel uplifted and refreshed by your presence, others may feel threatened or annoyed.  But the opinions of others matter little; nothing can hold you back right now.”

             The first card has a message that I absolutely agree with, that of living all of our embodiments to release old patterns and move forward in our journey to be a more evolved soul, eventually becoming one with the Universe.  The second card is cool because it is validation of our acts of mindfulness, and the hard work we are doing in that direction.

             While the last message is simply a positive reminder to keep our focus.  Since many of us are going through a fresh cycle or a life change right now, whether these are physical or emotional or purely situational, this draw says that we are on the right path.  Be intentional with what we’re working on, and give it our all.  Use our past lessons and this current energy to guide us, in our onward and upward spiral.  All the while, gaining knowledge and happiness, with this loving and  precise focus.

              Aim at our goals, and we are better able to reach them.  Just don’t forget, we need to also pay attention to all of the entertaining and enlightening sights along our route.

Today’s Deck:

Osho Zen Tarot

             Interesting addition to that first card, in case you feel like going further with this one.  Here is a quick over-view of the traditional meaning and definition of what is usually The Moon in standard decks.

             Quick note on my own progress.  It’s been up and down, with not much improvement.  Biking every day but not doing well on the weight-loss front.  I refuse to get discouraged, instead I’m being stubborn.  (Cuz THAT worked so fucking well the first 50 years.)  But I’m telling you honestly, I’m not giving up, just reporting in.  Sadly the report sucks at this particular moment.

             (Even though I thought the reading was encouraging.  So, good news/bad news sort of deal.  Upside?  The pool was fabulous yesterday and we just got this summer’s schedule, I’m on the calendar two days a week, not sharing water with any other activity.  There will be a maintenance closure in August, but only for two weeks.)

LateNight Link:

I’ve added back Julie Jackson’s Subversive Cross Stitch site, specifically her blog.  She recently did a big upgrade but I haven’t had enough minutes yet to spend any time over there.  This is more for me than anyone else.  But, feel free to pop over and see what she’s got going on.

LaterNight Daily Dog:

Three happy dogs.

             She just checked in!  It WAS a busy day in groomer’s world.  But she came through.  Thanks so much, Empress!

Levels and Aspects of Safety.

            In our card altar room* today we had an interesting phenomenon occur.  I placed my hand on the next deck in the rotation, but then it just lifted off.  The message was for me to keep moving.  So I turned to the table where I sit (where the “extras” now reside), and was directed, instead, to our newest addition.  Fabulous when shit like that happens, really it is.

*No.  We have NOT enlarged the altar space/card area.  Yet.  We’ll get there!  I promise we will.

             So, that’s where we’ll begin.  This illustration is not too bad, but I could do without the lines in her damn eyes.  (Why does he DO that?!  WTF Toni?)

“Goddess Of Psychic Protection  ~

What you believe, you create;

No-one can harm you.

You subconsciously believe that someone is energetically trying to cause negativity in your life.

You have drawn this card today to remind you that the life force, or energy, at the heart of every living thing is, in essence, love.  Each individual soul forms part of a universal soul.  All is energetically connected through the light of love.  No-one can psychically harm you, possess you, or influence you, unless you believe they can.  What you believe you create.  You do not need to protect yourself from others as much as you need to protect yourself from your own negative beliefs and fears.

To dissolve these beliefs and fears all you need to do is focus on the light and love within and around you, and within and around every living thing.  Imagine pure white light surrounding you each and every moment of your life.  Know you are always protected and forever within God’s light.  Focus on the image of the Goddess, whose face appears on  this card, feel the love, light, and wisdom emanating from her.  Know that she merely reflects the infinite love, light, and wisdom within you.”

              Let’s begin with the lecture portion here, shall we?  Do NOT fall in to the trap of “this one’s not for me” okay?  Because, no, not all of us are going to associate with that opening piece about the mysterious someone who is attacking us psychically.  Some MIGHT, but the majority of us won’t connect with that.  Move past it, but stay with me.

             (Also, please change any words in particular that bother you or do not work comfortably for you.  An example:  know that you are  always protected and forever within the light of a loving Universe.)

            There is a very valid message in there, we just need to focus on the truth in the lesson.  (If, in fact, the lesson is NOT about protection on a psychic level.   Which, ya know, it totally may be for some people.)  What you believe, you create.  That sentence has now been added to our Wisdom Of The Universe sidebar over there <—–  .

             The thing about this statement is that it IS a Universal Truth, it’s law.  And it’s why affirmations (mind darts, focused intentions, and prayers) work so well.  In addition to why, when we give in to fear (or any other negative emotion), we simply bring MORE fear into our lives.

             Focusing, as the definition says, on love and light, will ease whatever difficulty we are currently experiencing.  I know this works, I did it yesterday!  Intentionally and with excellent results.  It only took a few moments, and it was terrifically successful.  The goal is to put it into practice more often, regularly, and with even larger rewards.

              The greater sign for us with this card, and why we were directed to it right now, is that we must shine those positive lights of love onto whatever is in front of us.  Think of the most messed up situation in your life right now, apply this protection and Goddess essence (love!) to that.  Add your personal affirmations to suit this circumstance, using the words Toni has supplied for us, or creating your own.  (Or asking me in the comments if you feel stuck.)

             Feeling unsafe can be scary, but turning that completely around, and making ourselves secure and safe in all areas, by being empowered and in control, is a massive lesson.  It is such a huge step forward on our paths, in our relationships, or jobs, our homes, and just generally along all lines in our life.  Here is our chance to make it happen.  Here is the opportunity, handed directly to us,  for incorporating this blessing into our New Dawn, New Day.   Into our homes.  And into our lives.

            For the rest of our business now, how about the first installment of our Daily Dog from across town?  Empress says they aren’t real good at posing, so we may not get too many of these.

Heidi and Lukas

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods, And Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno

LateNight Shameless Plug:

Hanny has a new post up today on her personal blog.  It was a powerful and painful day in her adopted town.  But, she wrote about it in a profound and heartfelt way.  As she does, so well.

LateNight Festive Wishes:

three years ago today my beautiful cousin, and her equally lovely bridegroom, got married.  And we were there!  Happy Happy Anniversary Jannel and Tony!

Split, but sorta not.

             There is no picture of my injury from yesterday.  It didn’t go nearly as bad as I thought it might.  Whew!  I’m tellin’ you guys, that magical blue stuff is the best!  Combined with my Trifecta Of Pain Relief?  The perfect way to feel better, no matter WHAT has happened.

                  Also, I have a bit of bad news.  Our Daily Dog feature could be going on hiatus.  Empress and Max have taken a pet and house-sitting gig.  She went over there tonight, sans Grand Dog, to spend some quality (bonding, get-to-know-you) time with the four-legged residents.  Tomorrow he’ll be joining her, and we probably won’t see them for a week or more.  Now, she MAY send us phone photos of everyone, so there IS hope!

He’s not wearing that skirt.
I promise.

               Our message today is one of those that has meanings only one (or any) direction.  And wow, it’s timely.  Again.

“The Dragon’s Duel  ~ 

inner conflict, morality, conscious choice  ~  23

The Dragon’s Duel takes place at the proverbial fork in the road.  It is both Ally and Challenger at once, as it represents the tension of opposites.  Even though the truth is that we live in unity, we experience the duality of faith and doubt, love and fear, right and wrong, black and white.  This aspect of your current experience asks you to accept that although you may be going one way, another may call to you to change direction.

Now is the time to inquire whether it’s your ego or your soul leading you.  There are always choices in life.  Decision making also solves inner conflict.  If you are torn between two dragons, the one that you chose to feed will be the one that wins.  Which is it?  If it’s not the one that serves the highest of your intention, deliberately feed the other and the duel will be won in your favor.”

           Part of this definition has never made sense to me, but today I read it differently, and I see more of what she’s saying here.  It also (gawd I love a theme) ties in to us standing our ground and being more in-tune with what we need in order move forward.  On my own path, the disconnect is quite obvious when I look at it through the eyes of this card.

             I didn’t have a particularly great start to the day, but after my bike ride, and after I told Dan that I needed to be in a snit for a while, it did improve.  I worked really hard on focusing directly into what I was feeling, sensing, experiencing.  (Look at me doin’ my damn homework!)  Then I released as much negativity (and crappy attitude) as I could, and finished off with my new affirmation*.

*Which I just invented on Friday, and will share down at the bottom of this post.  Feel free to incorporate it into your own Positivity Journaling.   (Because I KNOW you are all doing this with me.)

            I started afresh, tuning OUTwards, and moving past.  We got some groceries (he’s going to make me a frittata), and we had a slow meander with our frozen yogurt treats.  I really do enjoy when shit falls into place.  (Or ya know, I love it when I do the work and it WORKS.)

            Also?  The number on this one adds down to five.  So, bonus.  We get a pentacle as our reward.

Today’s Deck:

Wisdom Of The Hidden Realm Oracle Cards by Colette Baron-Reid

New Affirmation:

I am a whole and complete person, in touch with every feeling, cell, sensation, and mood.

Foreign License Plate Report:

Kansas, BC (wave wave!!!), and New Mexico

 

Sometimes lessons are painful.

           You guys!  Yesterday we forgot to wish Isadora Duncan happy birthday!  Dammit, I am totally to blame.  The date was written down on my fine old, ratty-ass, used envelope right here, it just didn’t make it into the post.  So, we recognize her day of birth 24 hours later, but still, festively, and with much warmth.

           Back to now, as in, today we went to the pool.  Ah….. salty, slightly chlorinated, über warm water…..  I feel much rejuvenated.  Which is good, because the earlier part of the day was rotten.  I’m seriously working on becoming all complete and shit.  But so far, the only observations I’ve come up with are not-positive emotions/senses.  I mean, that’s good too, I’m NOTICING.  So, improvement.  The WHAT of it though, not so great.

              Let’s  look at Max, then get on with our card.  He had to stay home while Dan and I were out, but tomorrow he’ll have more front yard time.  Our erranding list is very small.

Lookin’ good
in a cotton sweater.

            The weeds sort of exploded while we were gone;  some string-trimming will be the order of the day.  Before our walk/food gathering expedition (or whatever we end up deciding to do in the way of movement).

            On the rotation du jour, we’ve come around to an engagingly fascinating animal, which falls under the category of

Earth Dwellers:

Mouse, Porcupine, Badger, Scorpion, and Fox.

These messengers make their homes within the safe, secure, and embracing element of the earth itself, and counsel that you too should remain grounded.  If material anxieties and worries are dominating your mind, they advise that you pay attention to what is truly important – your family, your true friends, your partner, and nature.

Earth-dwellers counsel that you reconnect with the wild world, even if this is as ephemeral as walking in a city park.  The grass may be manicured, the earth trodden hard, but beneath the surface worms and insects work tirelessly to renew the soil and its touch beneath bare feet can stabilize you, even when much seems lost.”

“Porcupine  ~ 

You may defend yourself honorably without hurting those close to you.

Porcupine trusts in the world.  Individual but unterritorial she shares her dens, her favorite verdant pastures, and is rewarded with plenty.  But when trust is broken Porcupine defends herself fiercely with barbed quills, causing even Tiger to defer. 

Like Porcupine, share your bounty with others, be it material or emotional, and discover that it returns to you tenfold.  Trust in others while not hesitating in defense and you too will garner the respect that Porcupine commands and the happiness you deserve.”

            See a pattern here?  I did, too.  More than one, in fact.  Good ideas that I feel strongly about, convictions I’m attached to.  Living genuinely with trust, being compassionate/sharing on all levels, and standing our ground, all are honest and positive ways to, not just survive, but to thrive.

            Unexpected interruption and delay.  Stand by, while I wait for the stars to clear from my vision.  I just went upstairs to check on a load of laundry and bashed my right hand soundly in to the back corner of a chair.

            Sturdy, go-nowhere piece of furniture vs the overly-sensitive and super-thin skin on the back of my hand = huge pain, and potentially a broken blood vessel, absolutely some massive bruising, swelling is already evident.  I’ve applied the magical blue stuff, smacked my Beloved in the arm (don’t ask, it just happens when I’m injured), and taken the Trifecta of Pain Relief.  But, I’m done for the night.  Grim pictures and medical updates tomorrow.

Today’s Deck:

Animal Messages – Seek Inspiration From Your Animals Guides by Susie Green

LateNight Crafty Goodness:

another picture I just came across, of the fabric we got on our latest adventure.

Might turn into a bag,
might not.

           Here is the shop website.  Wonderful people, I hope we can visit them again next time we head that direction.

A personal stance, and a new view.

           This post is being written in two parts.  We’re going to my mom and dad’s place for dinner later, and I don’t know how much time I’ll have to blog when we get back.  So, I’m starting early.  With things I wanted to talk about yesterday (and the day before).  Things like my new counselor and why I’m seeing her, plus what we’ve already found out about me.  (Because, ya know,  it IS all about ME.)

             I never use pseudonyms here*, we just ARE who we are, but this time I’m going to.  Not sure why, but that’s what feels correct in this situation.  We’re going to call her “A” for right now, this may very well change later though.  (Or I might just plain old forget to do it.  See note below.)

*I can’t remember names well, just as a matter of course, so there’s not a chance in hell that I’d be able to call my children or husband something OTHER than what I already call them.  My head is very full, no room for anything that’s not ABSOLUTELY necessary.

             The “why” of me seeing A is that it seems like I’ve done all I can on my own.  I’ve changed pretty much every physical aspect that I believe I’m able to.  The spiritual focus is great, lots of affirmations, plenty of positive thinking.  It’s the very cerebral and mental (or in my mind: Swords) crap that I’m still struggling with.  So, I’ve found a person I think can help.

            The biggest deal we have learned so far is that I’m disconnected from my body.  I don’t like it much, and I tend to have the attitude of battling it.  Now, I’m NOT a competitive person.  At.  All.  I detest the fact that someone, in any sort of challenge, must lose.  This pacifist mind-set is VERY at odds with, and entirely against, how I am living in view of my personal being.  Figuring this out was HUGE!  (Even though it seems sort of small now that it’s all typed out.)

               We, me and A, now have a goal in sight.  I will strive to be a whole and complete being, instead of separate and apart.  The theory is that once I’ve accepted this, or can at least begin to view it this way, my physiology will do what it is supposed to.  That is, lose weight.  Less food in, more movement and energy expended out, natural and long-term weight loss SHOULD just simply happen.  Or so we are hoping.

               Rewards, as I mentioned the last time, are also on the table.  One I did not tell you about was the “music for the sake of music” option.  Many of us have devices in which our favorite tunes are stored.  Mine is ancient, but I adore it.  However, I only listen to it when I’m trudging.  (Although we did have fun with our personal playlists on this last driving adventure.)

                 What if we set aside a specific time to just enjoy a song, or five, for the very act of absorbing the music?  Wouldn’t that be a mindful exercise in pleasure and a lovely gift to ourselves?  Yes, I thought so too.   Bonus!  Our brain is excited about the prospect of this type of activity; reacting just as it would if we promised ourselves a cupcake!  The reaction is the same.  Only with the song version, we gain no weight, but we still feel fabulous.  Win win.

            (The cupcake is for later, or another day.  The cupcake is NEVER out of the equation, it’s just not considered a treat the same way it used to be.)

               There is a truth and a compassion to therapy, I’ve found.  When we treat ourselves honestly and really try to learn, to grow, to HELP, we can be so much more than we ever thought possible.  So far, I’m a fan.  (This could change, I’ll keep you posted.)

               On our card altar today is another message I’m greatly fond of.  Even though I don’t know much about this particular saint, I do like what she says.  Or, in this case, represents.

“Don’t Compromise  ~

St Agnes of Rome

You are asked to take a stand in favor of your truth and self-esteem.  You don’t need to compromise to get what you want, and you can live by the truth of your beliefs.  St Agnes is your guide and role model in this aspect.  She shows that in love relationships – as well as career, home, health, and other life areas – you mustn’t compromise your values.

If you are in a difficult situation, first try to negotiate a better solution with the people involved.  For instance, if your romantic relationship is unsatisfactory, tell your partner your honest feelings.  St Agnes and your angels will help you speak truthfully with love so that your partner can really hear you.  If this doesn’t yield satisfactory results, this saint may guide you to a counselor or a helpful organization.  The key with this message, though, is to stand by your truth without compromise.  As God’s holy child, you deserve to be treated with love, respect, and dignity.  Accept nothing less.”

            Or, in non-Doreen-speak . . . . . as a light-filled being, as a child of the Earth, as a free human, you deserve to be treated with love, respect, and dignity.  Accept nothing less, even from yourself.

             Second part.  I’m back from dinner.  It was lovely.  We had several types of grilled items (both animal and non) with a huge green salad.  (But we were with my mother, so there was also tortellini salad, and several-bean salad on her table, of course.)  And pie.

                (There is nothing wrong with this picture, or the pie, other than that fact that I didn’t realize a glass dessert cover doesn’t really photograph worth a shit.)

Tart Cherry

             She also, accidentally and unbeknownst to her, made us Clean brownies.  With Mexican chocolate.  Yeah,  it was a VERY good meal.

That dog is everywhere!

              She wanted you all to see the vest she made, out of that exquisite yarn I bought her for some gift-giving occasion recently.

Today’s Deck:

Saints & Angels Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

          The Daily Dog is a bonus, since he also photo-bombed that above shot.  But I took it before we left.  How was I to know he’d be in ALL the pictures?

Sort of On Guard,
Alert, at the very least.

             If there is a mat or a rug in front of him, he’s on it.  Although, at this very moment, he’s perched on top of an unstable pile of Dan’s clean, folded laundry, which is on the back of an upholstered chair.