It seems we need to clear up a few things. Robin asked about yesterday’s title, which I thought was pretty self-explanatory, but perhaps not. (It’s not you, it’s me. For real.) There are days I really struggle over what to put in the top line/empty space. A majority of them though, just pop into my head, and that makes me tremendously grateful. For the most part the headings over each post have about two or three levels to them. Not always, but usually.
Some of the lyrics from a song by The Eurythmics -
(Annie Lennox, David Allan Stewart)
Here comes the rain again
Falling on my head like a melody
Falling on my head like a new emotion
I want to walk in the open wind
I want to talk like lovers do
I want to dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you
The inspiration of it came as I was hearing the raindrops hit my hood when I rode under some very wet trees. Originally I thought there was line in there somewhere about the rain “pounding” but it’s not on any of the sites I saw. Maybe she just sang that, sort of improv-like, only the one time, on the recording I’m familiar with. Or I’ve been remembering it wrong for a gazillion years. Either way, this was one layer of why I typed that line in last night.
Another aspect of it is how, when I mentally round up what’s been going on in the day, I eventually sort it into categories as I sit down at the keyboard. The groups often relate to the Elements (in the open wind, your ocean). Did I have any cool sparks of Divinely sent brilliance? What did I see while I was outside? How many pictures do I have today? Is the card a fun one or a serious message that I need to focus further on? Both maybe? List of Foreign Plates this time? (Am I hungry? And where the fuck are my notes?)
Additionally, in the case of “falling on my head” it was all about my sister there for an hour or so. I hear from her occasionally, and I have those pink clogs in the card altar room, so sometimes I put them on and wear them around when I’m in there. Not precisely FALLING so much as BEING in my head. She helped me find the old coats and the correct hat.
The “melody” part had to do with the cards and how I was thinking about when messages come to us musically. Like songs on the radio (or randomly appearing on our music players), or movie/TV show themes, the symbology of a beloved lullaby (or what some of us VERY young parents chose to USE as lullabies). The Zen deck is not a comfortable fit for some JulieLanders, and I’m always aware of that. As I thought about the definitions in that guidebook, I was considering which parts to use here, and what I heard in my head was “here comes the pain again.”
Today’s title is referring to the above explanations, as well as returning to the Allen Carr discussion. All of you have read my son’s opinions on this, right? Okay, so it appears as though not everyone is a fan. Fine by me. No problem at all. I knew that from the start. I knew it when I quit smoking and the response I give people when they ask all the standard questions is: I read a book. My hope was that after reading the NEXT book, I could say the same thing when (not if!) people exclaim in all the standard ways about how much weight I’ve lost: I read a book.
His methods are not for everybody, apparently. But they work for me. Or, more correctly, did work for the past two and a half weeks. I seem to have fallen off the raw food/nearly vegan suggestions of eating that Allen believes is in our best interests. And I’m stranded up here on this irritating gawdamned plateau right now. I’m going to re-read some sections in the next few days, and see if that helps. I may also have some other movement options coming up, which might assist in kicking my ass over the edge and back to effortlessly dropping a few pounds every week.
This afternoon’s event was a warm and highly inattentive trudge on the regular Route of about 4 and 3/4 miles. I was a Chatty Cathy (Texty Tessa?) because I was reaching out for some friendly bolstering and checking in with a couple of sympathetic pals. My pace was delayed because we all know I absolutely can’t multi-task, nor parallel think. So, I got lapped. By an old man. And a grandmother, with toddlers. And most definitely got breezed right past by runners and dog walkers.
I did take some pictures for you though. This one is a house that recently caught fire. No one was home at the time and the owners are claiming arson. I have no idea what the situation is, but I am being ever vigilant to changes and updates as I wander past each time.
Our title for today also refers to this shot. It’s the same view you’ve seen before, near the park. This is where the ducks were spotted, paddling so close to me, nearly on the sidewalk. No flooding now. But this was all under water yesterday.
Look who greeted me upon my safe arrival home. Max! He and Empress were here today so she and her father could make a get-to-know-you visit with a new (alternative) health care guy. I was hoping it would be a we’ve-fixed-her visit, but I guess that will be next time. (Fingers crossed!)
Our daily draw is from my working deck. This one came up well and truly backwards.
Six of Pentacles (Reversed)
Money and things of Matter, what can be made, bought, sold, traded, and bartered. This tells us, immediately, that we need to pay attention to where our funds are going and not where they have gone. Once we’ve spent our coins, they are spent. We either appreciate what they’ve helped us to acquire, or we don’t. And when we don’t, we are setting ourselves up for disappointment, setting ourselves up for a bad mood we really don’t need to bring on.
Our message in this one talks about allowing our funds to flow freely, giving and receiving in equal proportion. We can’t hold on to everything, especially and specifically, money or our services or any trade goods we may have. The market of buying and selling is based on that action of movement.
Let the money go if it needs to, more will show up (it always does). Pay for the services that cost, reimburse the professionals who know the tricks of the trade. Be a generous steward of our position and pay well. Tip those who work hard and make little, share the wealth. It will be returned to us, as the Three Fold Rule of the Universe declares.
Today’s Deck:
Robin Wood Tarot
