As most of you know by now, cleaning is not one of the things I “do” -much like fear, jealousy, or toilets. I completely avoid, and stay well away from, all of those. (Right, so I make an exception for the potty situation.) We’ve been getting these renewal messages and signs that it’s time for some psychic housekeeping (which often accompanies actual real live housekeeping, blech). Your comments have been nothing short of inspirational too, I must say. So thanks for that.
Over at Melissa’s place, she’s recently been on a similar tidy-fest. It was not at all suprising when I saw that today’s card went right along with this same (seemingly every damn where) attitude. As did the chores/projects that Daniel and I spent the afternoon working on. When The Merry stopped by we chatted about my “confused” living room furniture. There was an extra large chair and love seat-like item, in the middle of the room, blocking the couches we sit on in there. These were graciously donated by Empress and Honey Graham because they received a generous donation of a sofa from Charles (J.D.’s room mate).
Yesterday Dan started the redecorating transition. The goal was to replace an ancient hide-a-bed in the downstairs family room with this new-to-us seating arrangement. It’s a massive undertaking and technically challenging process, let me tell you. It still isn’t done, but hey, we made a wonderful start the past few days. We’ve also been talking about how we perceive what is right in front of us.
My natural inclination is to complain. (Duh.) So then he reminds me that what I really want to be saying is something totally different. (He’s right. Also duh.) And on a deeper level, when we need to remove things, tidy up, clean crap that has somehow become in the way, I (and many other people) begin with an emotional reaction. This is another topic of our daily conversations. The combination of all this, is precisely what our card it about right now.
I will be going about this a wee bit differently tonight, so hang in there with me. Yes, it’s the Five of Pentacles reversed. But its message is better in this direction. Here’s what it looks like, the other way around, even though we are going to focus on it with the tweak.
First of all I want to talk a tiny bit about Pentacles, in case not everyone has memorized all the words under the Pentacle People tab, or you’ve forgotten that this suit is of the physical realm. It’s made of matter, it is items that can be bought, sold, traded, and created with our own hands. It evolved into the suit of Diamonds in our modern poker deck. It embodies that which is of great value, and it is also the symbol OF our bodies.
Fives are of the person too. So when we get this card it’s really just a Five of Fives, or an extreme focus on the physicality of who we are, as people, and as our own unique individual selves; very much about touching, seeing, tasting, sensing all the tactile levels possible. It is all about the body, the person, the physical situation we find ourselves in.
Look at the picture and you can see two individuals. One cowering under a ratty blanket and one up on his good leg wearing rags. They are in the worst weather imaginable, and they seem to be without hope. And yet, they are on the outside of what appears to be a sanctuary of some type. So, there IS hope, it’s just near-by, not RIGHT there where they are.
When we get this one upside down it can mean several things, but in the case of today’s draw, and in relation to what we’ve been getting in our past few cards, it is telling us that the hope we know is NEAR is actually even closer than we first thought. We’ve already begun the cycle of moving in that direction. Our hope, our redemption, or renewal-and-new-direction may be SO close, that we can physically reach out and touch it.
We have hopped up and set off, staying on our path and heading in the right direction. Sure we have battle scars and wounds, but we are moving ahead in the way we know we need to, and in the way that will serve us best, in the way we feel is the most absolutely perfect route to travel for our highest good.
Here’s one of the things that I think is so valuable about this card, when we get up, and hobble off, even if we only have one leg, barely a working arm, and can only see out of one eye, we are better off than that other character in the illustration. There on the ground is a being who won’t even try. She sits huddling against the wall with her hand out. Waiting for someone to come along and help her, give to her, HAND her the answer.
This is what it’s like to fight your destiny, to ignore your messages, to constantly NOT do the right thing. She is gonna freeze her ass off. And she’ll be miserable all the while. We never want to be her. This is what my Beloved and I discussed earlier. We look around and are grateful that we have a used chair and tattered old love seat in a shitty family room. Because the alternative is NOT having a chair, or even a house to put it in at all.
I complain about my legs hurting, but the reality is that I’m grateful for having two legs. Fat legs that are old, you bet, but those legs get me around the neighborhood, and they get me up and down the stairs. Those pudgy legs show my beautiful tattoos and move my ass from one room to another all day long. Those legs (and my two fully functioning arms) helped to move several pieces of furniture today, in and out of the house, up and down stairways, through doors and over uneven flooring.
Yes some of us do need to whine a bit, we need to feel our emotions, and THEN we can move on. Once we’ve experienced that feeling of being fully human and flawed, we can let those emotions (and some bags of trash/recycling/donate-ables) go and thank the Universe that we CAN bitch and moan, then finally… just enjoy the blessings we are so lucky to have been given.
One Last LateNight Gratitude: thank you, again, Emmy for that wonderfully orange and useful Tupperware pitcher you gave me for Solstice last year. It came in so handy tonight, when I almost died of scurvy.
REALLY Last Thing: Google fu masters, JulieLander Ridiculous Research Team, any and all who want to be of assistance, go help Barb!!! She has an eye question and can use some info.